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I've never really been
the kind of person to

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open up to anyone...

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And it was really hard after
what happened at school.

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I developed
feelings for a girl.

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And, word got out to the girl
through a friend of mine.

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And, the girl said that
I was bullying her.

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And, the school
found out,

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and I didn't feel like I could
stand up for myself.

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So I felt really scared,

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and I didn't want to
tell my parents.

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Like, I didn't know
how to tell them

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without coming out to them,

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'cause I wasn't
ready to do that yet.

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The school asked me,
"We can either tell your parents

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or suspend you," and I
just told the school

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straight up to suspend me,

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'cause I didn't want my
parents to know yet.

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And, they called
my mom anyways,

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and told my mom
the whole story

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while I was in
the other room.

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There are days where I'm,
you know,

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big, tough, and strong,

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and I come home,
when I'm in my bed,

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and I kind of go- I just...

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want to go back...

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like, seven years or
something and just...

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be a kid again.

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And I remember saying, like,

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I've always wanted to grow up,

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but now that I'm growing up...

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I want to go back
and be a kid again.

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I don't think I
have been in a space

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where it's all queer people.

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Not yet, at least.

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What shoes are
you gonna bring?

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You gotta have
something for hiking.

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It just says
"outdoor footwear".

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Insect repellent.

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Five shirts?

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Yeah, I would take five,
just to so you have extra.

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Setting off,
it's about 7AM.

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We're gonna go get some fuel,
we're gonna hit the road.

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And we are on our way
to Camp fYrefly 2022.

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Yeah, hell yeah.

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In southern Alberta, there is a
really strong religious and

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socially conservative
community.

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So, being queer, it's not
often you get to see

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someone who is
like yourself.

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- A hawk.
- Oh, yeah.

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To have camp,

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it's a time to let that
weight off your shoulders.

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I am so excited.

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Just to be surrounded
by people who

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I don't have to
explain myself to.

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A camp like this,
it's important because

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I get to see people
who are like me,

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and I know that
I'm not alone.

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Okay...

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Mwah!

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I'm a trans girl.

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And, I've been out
for about a year.

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I'm just...

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I'm just a
goth chick.

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I was,
I think I was 8.

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I think that's the
first time I actually

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told everybody I
felt like a girl.

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And that was
only my family.

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My name is Ren.
My pronouns are

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he/they, and I am
trans masc non-binary.

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Um, I think the
biggest part is

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meeting other people
like me 'cause...

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I don't get to see
that every day.

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It was a bit of a process.

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At first I thought
I was a lesbian,

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which turned out to
be vastly incorrect.

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I was a transphobe,
a homophobe.

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I was like a stereotypical
high school bully because

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I didn't want to
accept who I was...

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because I was scared.

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My parents think I'm going
to this camp because

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I'm bisexual,
and I am.

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But I identify as
a trans man,

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or just a man.

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But my parents
don't know,

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and I haven't told
them or anything.

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Hand me that screwdriver.

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Mark the drywall where the
little anchor has to go.

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Yeah.

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It's such a big
conversation to explain...

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that it just feels like
it's easier to just

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not talk about it.

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Hanging some sort of Ikea
shelf that she got somewhere.

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My parents misgender me,
but it's not a situation

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where I can be mad at
them because...

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I haven't given them
anything, so they stick with-

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my parents stick
with what they know.

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I have no idea what
the shelf is for.

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- Whatever she decides-
- Trinkets.

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Trinkets.

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Like, I'm more, I'm more
close with my mom.

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But, my dad's
always been...

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he's like a tough dad,
man kind of thing.

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Oh, come here, have fun.

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I'm just trying not to read
the back of your shirt.

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- Yeah...
- Kiddo.

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Bye.
Get out of here.

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Have fun,
be safe, don't die.

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- Yes. Bye... bye.
- Bye.

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It's a bigger
conversation than

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I want to have
with them...

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but, what feels
good for me...

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just giving me the space
to be able to, like,

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find out who
I am, myself.

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Hi, what's your name?

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Hi, ah, either
Kingston or-

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Kingston... Kingston...

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At this camp, I hope
I don't have to

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carry around two identities
and two names,

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and I'm able to just
feel more like myself.

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- Hi, nice to meet you.
- What's your name?

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- Uh, Kingston.
- Kingston? Awesome.

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Okay, I will be with
you in just a second.

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Sure.

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Uh, can I please
ask your name?

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- Um, Manessa.
- Cool.

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- Are you under 18?
- Yeah.

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Sure.

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I'm like a little bit
nervous to do this.

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But, I'm excited
as well.

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I'm part of the adoption
community because I'm adopted.

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And I'm also part of the
skateboard community.

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At least, I hope.

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And then, also the
queer community.

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And then, the Black
community as well.

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Maybe put your other
hand near Stella's head.

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Yeah, like that.
There you go.

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But I'm one of the only Black
kids in my neighbourhood.

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I think there's maybe one
other family that lives

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a little bit over there,
but you know,

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it can be really
hard sometimes.

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I brought jorts,
and I brought...

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my athletic black shorts
'cause they're really nice.

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I wore them hiking,
and they're nice 'cause

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they're not too heavy.

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- Yeah, perfect.
- Yeah.

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Yeah, it would be nice
if there were more

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Black, queer people
like, in Calgary.

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It would be nice to
see more of that.

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- Here we are.
- Hell, yeah.

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Let's do it.

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Yeah, me and the boys
have been to camp before,

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but last time we were
just scrawny little 13,

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14-year-olds.

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But now we're like on the
higher end of the

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age spectrum at camp.

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I guess you could say
we're like the

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cool kids on campus now.

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This is my first time at camp.

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There's a lot of
cool people here.

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I don't know.

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- Yeah.
- Definitely.

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For sure, yeah.

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Could either be
a boy or a girl.

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I don't really
mind either which.

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Well, dating hasn't
been great,

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if I'm gonna be honest,
but I think if

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I were to ever have a
relationship again, then...

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I'd pick a,
pick better people.

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Yeah, it's really nice seeing
people from last camp and

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meeting all the new people.

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Now we're in the
big kid cabin.

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Now we have to like
pay taxes and stuff.

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I got an email about taxes
just a couple months ago too.

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Oh, man.

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I'm not even 18 yet,
and they're like,

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"Hey, what about taxes?"

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Oh, no!

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This is Ren.

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The first time I
realized that, oh,

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people can be queer,
it was just because

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I read a book and there
was a queer couple in it.

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So, I learned as much
as I could so that

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I could always defend
my right to exist.

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- Mhm
- Oh, that's gonna be fun.

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Yeah, they're Wren is
W-R-E-N.

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- Oh!
- Yeah, so...

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You can definitely hear the
difference when you say it.

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I hope you enjoy.

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I'm very extroverted so,

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I will read your face if
maybe I'm a bit too much.

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Yeah, we can help
you move in.

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- Okay.
- Cool, see you later.

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Okay.

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Ah!

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I love your hair.
How do you style it?

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Um, I like 70's style it.

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I would like to
make some friends...

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who are queer, and who can-

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I can like talk to things
like gender about to.

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But, I kept asking
my mom, like,

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"Hey, what should I do?

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I don't know how
to talk to people."

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And she kept saying,
"Oh, make sure

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you make eye contact."
And I hate doing it.

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It makes me uncomfortable,

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so I don't understand why
it's a necessity.

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- I'm Ren.
- Nice to meet ya.

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Apparently there is
more than one Ren,

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but the other one
is the one with the W.

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I'm not the one
with the W.

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Okay, cool.

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Well,
welcome to camp.

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I can tell by just
looking out...

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there's a lot of fear.

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There's a lot of excitement.

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And what I hope is deep in
your hearts is a knowledge

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that you're gonna be
well taken care of.

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And the whole goal this
week is for us to

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help you to
create community.

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So, welcome,
and thanks to all of you

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for spending time with us.

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Marshall, can we have you
come up and speak as well?

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Hello, everybody.

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Really excited to be
back here at camp.

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Camp, for me, has always
been a place where

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I felt I could thrive.

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I'm really excited to
assist with anything artistic

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that you might
need help with,

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including lip syncing 101.

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Thanks for having me.

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Okay, thank you,
Marshall!

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Part of
my job here

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is to really
bring these kids-

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who have to think so much
about the outside world,

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and how they're
being perceived-

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and get them to just
let go, have fun,

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and be themselves.

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Our job is to get them
to be kids again.

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Okay, let's do some
community camp guidelines.

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I feel like the best way to
make rules that

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we can all agree on,
and like

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vibe with
is to do it together.

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So, I think respect
privacy is a big one.

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Confidentiality is a big one.

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If you ever want to
pass for anything,

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you don't want
to do something,

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you want to skip
the conversation...

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you could either touch your
left shoulder or say "fiddle".

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Well, I think what's
unique about these spaces,

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especially with Camp fYrefly,

253
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is that we establish those
safer space agreements.

254
00:12:44,092 --> 00:12:46,593
So, we know right off the
bat that this is gonna be

255
00:12:46,594 --> 00:12:48,888
a safer space for everyone

256
00:12:48,889 --> 00:12:50,888
to express their
gender identity.

257
00:12:50,889 --> 00:12:53,557
I don't know what
I identify as.

258
00:12:53,558 --> 00:12:56,936
Was a trans man, but then
I was like, wait, no.

259
00:12:56,937 --> 00:12:59,856
That's not right either.

260
00:12:59,857 --> 00:13:02,901
And, I think that's one of
the big challenges outside of

261
00:13:02,902 --> 00:13:05,487
camp is that they don't
necessarily know

262
00:13:05,488 --> 00:13:08,031
what is going to be a
safe space for them.

263
00:13:08,032 --> 00:13:10,617
They don't necessarily
know if everyone

264
00:13:10,618 --> 00:13:13,912
in the space will be
accepting of their identity,

265
00:13:13,913 --> 00:13:15,748
or if they need to
hide a bit of it.

266
00:13:15,749 --> 00:13:18,334
Um, so that's
what's so special.

267
00:13:18,335 --> 00:13:21,086
Can we say what respect
looks like to us?

268
00:13:21,087 --> 00:13:23,047
Any suggestions?

269
00:13:23,048 --> 00:13:24,923
If my hair is unstyled,
do not look at me.

270
00:13:27,884 --> 00:13:30,013
If you end up seeing
someone from fYrefly,

271
00:13:30,014 --> 00:13:33,098
out in the community,
in your city...

272
00:13:33,099 --> 00:13:36,058
try to be casual 'cause
not everyone's out,

273
00:13:36,059 --> 00:13:37,144
so instead of being
like, "Oh hey,

274
00:13:37,145 --> 00:13:38,271
I know you from gay camp,"

275
00:13:38,272 --> 00:13:41,356
be like, "I think I know you
from somewhere."

276
00:13:41,357 --> 00:13:44,191
There is a potential for
triggering conversations,

277
00:13:44,192 --> 00:13:47,572
so as a pod, I kind of want us
to maybe choose a safe word.

278
00:13:49,240 --> 00:13:51,158
No, that's so unreasonable.

279
00:13:55,663 --> 00:13:58,833
Hm, like, what do
you mean by that?

280
00:14:01,126 --> 00:14:03,545
♪ DON'T TELL ME
WHAT TO DO ♪

281
00:14:03,546 --> 00:14:04,879
So, I'm autistic,

282
00:14:04,880 --> 00:14:07,466
and I have quite a
few special interests.

283
00:14:07,467 --> 00:14:08,843
♪ DON'T TELL ME
WHAT TO DO ♪

284
00:14:08,844 --> 00:14:11,720
I collect stuffed
animals, and also dolls.

285
00:14:11,721 --> 00:14:13,681
If you couldn't
tell by my room.

286
00:14:13,682 --> 00:14:15,724
So, this is my craft room.

287
00:14:15,725 --> 00:14:18,476
I make spikes,
I customize things.

288
00:14:18,477 --> 00:14:20,228
That's my Rapunzel wig.

289
00:14:20,229 --> 00:14:22,482
I like to make stuff.

290
00:14:22,648 --> 00:14:24,776
If you'll look around
you'll see...

291
00:14:24,777 --> 00:14:27,527
doll body parts everywhere.

292
00:14:27,528 --> 00:14:29,321
But that's fine,
that's normal.

293
00:14:34,660 --> 00:14:38,288
Um, I came out as a...

294
00:14:38,289 --> 00:14:41,624
non-binary person,
and then a trans man,

295
00:14:41,625 --> 00:14:44,168
at like 13.

296
00:14:44,169 --> 00:14:48,173
And, at the time,
there were no...

297
00:14:48,174 --> 00:14:50,633
other trans people
at my school...

298
00:14:53,303 --> 00:14:57,849
...which meant I had to take
a lot of the um, bullying.

299
00:14:57,850 --> 00:14:59,683
I told the school counsellors.
They were like,

300
00:14:59,684 --> 00:15:01,144
"Well, maybe
you should just be

301
00:15:01,145 --> 00:15:03,772
less open about
your identity."

302
00:15:03,773 --> 00:15:05,356
And that hit.

303
00:15:05,357 --> 00:15:08,192
So, I had to drop out.

304
00:15:08,193 --> 00:15:09,821
I don't get gender.

305
00:15:09,822 --> 00:15:12,031
I don't understand any of
the social constructs

306
00:15:12,032 --> 00:15:13,699
that come with it.

307
00:15:13,700 --> 00:15:16,700
I don't get why pink is for
girls and blue is for boys.

308
00:15:16,701 --> 00:15:18,994
And all that-
I've never understood it.

309
00:15:18,995 --> 00:15:22,582
And so, being trans masc
and very feminine,

310
00:15:22,583 --> 00:15:24,625
a lot of people
may question that,

311
00:15:24,626 --> 00:15:26,086
but I don't get
how I'm feminine,

312
00:15:26,087 --> 00:15:29,214
I just wear what I love.

313
00:15:29,215 --> 00:15:30,923
I don't feel like...

314
00:15:30,924 --> 00:15:33,008
I should hide anymore.

315
00:15:33,009 --> 00:15:34,552
I feel like gay people just
kind of find each other

316
00:15:34,553 --> 00:15:36,682
and stick together.
It's like a magnet thing.

317
00:15:38,392 --> 00:15:40,182
Just shut up.

318
00:15:40,183 --> 00:15:42,061
No, no, I know,
I know my magnets.

319
00:15:42,062 --> 00:15:45,565
I... I might be
a high school drop out!

320
00:15:45,566 --> 00:15:47,858
But you know your magnets!

321
00:15:47,859 --> 00:15:49,609
I know my magnets.

322
00:15:54,407 --> 00:15:56,992
Community means so
many different things,

323
00:15:56,993 --> 00:16:00,955
like a space where I feel,
like, at home, and like...

324
00:16:00,956 --> 00:16:04,541
just shared experience
is really important.

325
00:16:04,542 --> 00:16:06,835
It's important to have people
who are like you around

326
00:16:06,836 --> 00:16:08,336
because...

327
00:16:08,337 --> 00:16:10,589
then you can
share experiences,

328
00:16:10,590 --> 00:16:13,593
you can share stories,
and they can relate, or...

329
00:16:13,594 --> 00:16:16,137
they can
give you advice.

330
00:16:16,138 --> 00:16:18,888
There is, like, a thing
when I meet someone

331
00:16:18,889 --> 00:16:19,973
who's just like me.

332
00:16:19,974 --> 00:16:21,142
Like, it's just,
we get each other.

333
00:16:21,143 --> 00:16:23,686
We don't have to
specifically talk about...

334
00:16:23,687 --> 00:16:26,022
who we are or what we are.

335
00:16:26,023 --> 00:16:28,065
You know, we kind of just
get along, and we're like,

336
00:16:28,066 --> 00:16:31,276
okay, let's go
have a good time.

337
00:16:31,277 --> 00:16:35,114
I'm Wren.
I use he/they pronouns.

338
00:16:35,115 --> 00:16:37,740
I really like cats.

339
00:16:37,741 --> 00:16:39,367
I have three.

340
00:16:39,368 --> 00:16:42,330
I'm, I'm also Ren,
but without a 'W'.

341
00:16:42,331 --> 00:16:44,415
Um...

342
00:16:44,416 --> 00:16:47,417
My pronouns are also
he/they, somehow.

343
00:16:47,418 --> 00:16:49,836
And...

344
00:16:49,837 --> 00:16:52,422
I, I don't know, man.

345
00:16:52,423 --> 00:16:54,591
- That's perfect.
- I don't know what's happening.

346
00:16:58,388 --> 00:17:00,349
Every month, my friends and
I re-come out to each other.

347
00:17:03,226 --> 00:17:06,312
All of my
friends are gay.

348
00:17:06,313 --> 00:17:09,521
I also want to maybe learn
more about the community

349
00:17:09,522 --> 00:17:11,525
that we have
here in Alberta.

350
00:17:11,526 --> 00:17:13,652
Like, maybe some more
places that I can go to,

351
00:17:13,653 --> 00:17:16,029
to like talk about these
things that aren't my

352
00:17:16,030 --> 00:17:20,115
high school GSA that's
full of 14-year-olds.

353
00:17:20,116 --> 00:17:23,912
I have nothing against them.
They're wonderful, but...

354
00:17:23,913 --> 00:17:27,959
just... more.

355
00:17:27,960 --> 00:17:30,085
Do I get to sit
in the tire stump?

356
00:17:30,086 --> 00:17:31,544
- Oh, boy.
- Oh...

357
00:17:31,545 --> 00:17:32,545
Oh, boy!

358
00:17:32,546 --> 00:17:34,507
I wonder how many spiders
are in that thing.

359
00:17:34,508 --> 00:17:35,508
Isaiah!

360
00:17:35,509 --> 00:17:36,592
Okay, in this bag,

361
00:17:36,593 --> 00:17:38,177
we have pink hair dye
and brushes.

362
00:17:38,178 --> 00:17:40,011
You're gonna be so smooth
after this is done.

363
00:17:41,013 --> 00:17:45,892
The um, oils in the cream
I'm putting on will...

364
00:17:45,893 --> 00:17:48,312
stop the skin
from getting dyed.

365
00:17:48,313 --> 00:17:52,356
This is for
distressed skin types.

366
00:17:52,357 --> 00:17:54,986
- Same?
- Are you distressed?

367
00:17:54,987 --> 00:17:56,861
How do you feel right
now as I'm rubbing my-

368
00:17:58,446 --> 00:18:00,324
This feels like a
social experiment.

369
00:18:00,325 --> 00:18:03,035
Do you feel less distressed?

370
00:18:03,036 --> 00:18:04,745
Rub the cream on the head.

371
00:18:04,746 --> 00:18:06,288
On my head,
not "the" head.

372
00:18:06,289 --> 00:18:09,083
It's my head, excuse me,
it's my head.

373
00:18:09,084 --> 00:18:10,165
Thank you very much.

374
00:18:10,166 --> 00:18:13,169
No, there's just a community
head that we rub things on.

375
00:18:14,964 --> 00:18:16,298
It's lather time.

376
00:18:37,278 --> 00:18:39,237
Attention, campers.

377
00:18:39,238 --> 00:18:41,864
Today's activities are
going to be arts and crafts,

378
00:18:41,865 --> 00:18:44,660
a nature walk,
the clothing swap,

379
00:18:44,661 --> 00:18:47,454
archery, and the
bonfire later tonight.

380
00:18:54,795 --> 00:18:56,422
And also, a reminder,

381
00:18:56,423 --> 00:18:58,839
dying your hair is
not permitted so,

382
00:18:58,840 --> 00:19:00,593
no more hair dying.

383
00:19:19,362 --> 00:19:22,030
Oh, this is archery?

384
00:19:25,786 --> 00:19:29,329
I shouldn't have worn heels,
but also, they look nice.

385
00:19:31,207 --> 00:19:32,499
I, I knew I...

386
00:19:32,500 --> 00:19:35,877
I always knew
I wasn't a guy.

387
00:19:35,878 --> 00:19:38,630
I never enjoyed
being called a guy.

388
00:19:38,631 --> 00:19:40,214
The trans femme
community,

389
00:19:40,215 --> 00:19:43,258
we were
raised as "men".

390
00:19:43,259 --> 00:19:45,220
Looks like sushi
from the back.

391
00:19:45,221 --> 00:19:48,972
We were told all
those like...

392
00:19:48,973 --> 00:19:53,144
stupid things about,
"boys don't cry."

393
00:19:53,145 --> 00:19:57,775
So, I panicked, and
did something bad...

394
00:19:57,776 --> 00:20:00,527
turning to the
bullies at school,

395
00:20:00,528 --> 00:20:02,445
because they
were all guys.

396
00:20:02,446 --> 00:20:05,114
So, I wanted to know how
to be a guy because

397
00:20:05,115 --> 00:20:07,076
I didn't want to
accept who I was.

398
00:20:10,996 --> 00:20:12,539
Um...

399
00:20:13,959 --> 00:20:16,209
- Sure.
- Great.

400
00:20:19,588 --> 00:20:22,798
Middle schoolers have this
incredible ability to tell

401
00:20:22,799 --> 00:20:24,802
even before you can
whether or not

402
00:20:24,803 --> 00:20:27,053
you're gay or
neurodivergent.

403
00:20:27,054 --> 00:20:28,887
- Does that seem okay?
- Yeah.

404
00:20:28,888 --> 00:20:33,058
Woo! Nice job!

405
00:20:33,059 --> 00:20:35,687
Not a bad first shot,
you got this!

406
00:20:39,482 --> 00:20:42,277
Um, and they broke me,

407
00:20:42,278 --> 00:20:45,280
badly, a lot.

408
00:20:45,281 --> 00:20:47,199
Like, and none of it
was physical,

409
00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:49,910
which almost
hurts more.

410
00:20:54,707 --> 00:20:56,584
Jesus.

411
00:20:56,585 --> 00:21:00,004
I, uh, I had
problems with, um...

412
00:21:00,005 --> 00:21:01,547
self-hatred.

413
00:21:01,548 --> 00:21:04,339
I had problems with, um...

414
00:21:04,340 --> 00:21:07,844
I had problems with...

415
00:21:07,845 --> 00:21:11,014
wanting to harm myself.

416
00:21:11,015 --> 00:21:13,432
I actively participated
in things that I knew

417
00:21:13,433 --> 00:21:15,602
would cause me pain.

418
00:21:15,603 --> 00:21:18,480
Like, one of my favourite
games in elementary school

419
00:21:18,481 --> 00:21:20,941
was throw yourself down
the hill and do as much

420
00:21:20,942 --> 00:21:24,861
damage to your
body as possible.

421
00:21:24,862 --> 00:21:26,070
I have noticed
that ever since

422
00:21:26,071 --> 00:21:28,699
I did start
transitioning, um...

423
00:21:28,700 --> 00:21:32,035
my anxiety and like stress
about everything

424
00:21:32,036 --> 00:21:34,329
has significantly dropped.

425
00:21:34,330 --> 00:21:36,624
Like, I was...

426
00:21:36,625 --> 00:21:39,374
in a very bad,
emotional mental state.

427
00:21:39,375 --> 00:21:41,336
And then, I finally
realized who I was.

428
00:21:41,337 --> 00:21:44,005
Now I'm not in that state,
and it's allowed me to relax.

429
00:21:47,384 --> 00:21:49,511
Yeah...

430
00:21:53,723 --> 00:21:55,432
- There.
- Nice!

431
00:21:55,433 --> 00:21:57,227
You call it really bad
at archery.

432
00:21:57,228 --> 00:21:59,145
I call it freestyle acupuncture.

433
00:22:15,162 --> 00:22:16,746
I don't have scissors.

434
00:22:16,747 --> 00:22:18,914
So, I'm just gonna
tie a really large-

435
00:22:18,915 --> 00:22:20,124
You could probably
just chew it off?

436
00:22:20,125 --> 00:22:21,709
- You wanna chew it off?
- I can chew it off.

437
00:22:21,710 --> 00:22:23,336
Why didn't we grab scissors?

438
00:22:23,337 --> 00:22:24,922
I actually want to see
if he can chew it off.

439
00:22:24,923 --> 00:22:26,713
Oh, easy.

440
00:22:26,714 --> 00:22:31,344
Having trans masc friends,
it's very affirming.

441
00:22:31,345 --> 00:22:33,346
Oh, wow,
good job.

442
00:22:33,347 --> 00:22:36,098
It's a very specific
experience that

443
00:22:36,099 --> 00:22:39,060
very few other people
go through.

444
00:22:39,061 --> 00:22:42,605
Ah!

445
00:22:42,606 --> 00:22:44,900
Lovely, smooth moves.

446
00:22:46,818 --> 00:22:48,987
Honestly, it's been
way too long.

447
00:22:48,988 --> 00:22:50,780
We need to hang out
more often.

448
00:22:50,781 --> 00:22:52,739
I missed you guys a lot.

449
00:22:52,740 --> 00:22:55,868
I think we've grown as
individuals quite a bit

450
00:22:55,869 --> 00:22:57,203
since we've last
seen each other.

451
00:22:57,204 --> 00:23:00,124
Well, the most notable
would definitely be

452
00:23:00,125 --> 00:23:02,084
the years of testosterone.

453
00:23:02,085 --> 00:23:04,377
- Oh, God. Yeah.
- Both of us.

454
00:23:04,378 --> 00:23:06,838
Yeah, both of us
hadn't even started.

455
00:23:06,839 --> 00:23:09,133
Even back then,
you looked like a frat boy.

456
00:23:09,134 --> 00:23:11,218
I did, I had like the
sweatpants shorts

457
00:23:11,219 --> 00:23:12,719
and everything.

458
00:23:12,720 --> 00:23:14,596
How do you guys think
you've changed, emotionally?

459
00:23:14,597 --> 00:23:17,472
Like, camp was the first
time that I ever actually

460
00:23:17,473 --> 00:23:21,144
openly expressed
myself as a guy,

461
00:23:21,145 --> 00:23:23,104
and the first time I
actually felt comfortable

462
00:23:23,105 --> 00:23:24,480
in any of that.

463
00:23:24,481 --> 00:23:27,232
I know it really helped me
going forward because I have

464
00:23:27,233 --> 00:23:30,653
no idea what I would have
done without having camp

465
00:23:30,654 --> 00:23:32,739
to even figure anything out.

466
00:23:32,740 --> 00:23:36,116
It would have been even more
of a gong show than it was.

467
00:23:36,117 --> 00:23:39,537
What are you
considering, like...

468
00:23:39,538 --> 00:23:40,704
down the line?

469
00:23:40,705 --> 00:23:43,124
Well, I want to get a...
I want to get my own place.

470
00:23:43,125 --> 00:23:44,625
I want to move.
Maybe even come here,

471
00:23:44,626 --> 00:23:46,085
do some counselling.

472
00:23:46,086 --> 00:23:48,963
Without a way
to connect with

473
00:23:48,964 --> 00:23:50,798
other trans masc people,

474
00:23:50,799 --> 00:23:56,471
life would be just
that bit more...

475
00:23:56,472 --> 00:23:57,472
isolated.

476
00:23:57,473 --> 00:23:59,556
Sorry, that just made me
remember a joke

477
00:23:59,557 --> 00:24:01,017
kind of about camp.

478
00:24:01,018 --> 00:24:02,477
Knock-knock?

479
00:24:02,478 --> 00:24:04,687
When I first told my
friends about this,

480
00:24:04,688 --> 00:24:06,647
they thought I meant
a conversion camp.

481
00:24:07,901 --> 00:24:11,194
Ah, so they were
concerned for a bit.

482
00:24:11,195 --> 00:24:12,528
And then,
I just told them,

483
00:24:12,529 --> 00:24:14,197
it was an anti-
conversion camp.

484
00:24:14,198 --> 00:24:15,239
That works.

485
00:24:15,240 --> 00:24:16,740
Yeah, I mean,
it pretty much is.

486
00:24:16,741 --> 00:24:18,700
- Mhm.
- Sorry, ah...

487
00:24:18,701 --> 00:24:20,620
It's probably not as
funny as I think it is.

488
00:24:30,464 --> 00:24:32,383
Oh, that's so cute.

489
00:24:32,384 --> 00:24:35,218
It's a nice,
communal exchange...

490
00:24:35,219 --> 00:24:38,221
where, if you transition and
you used to wear this dress,

491
00:24:38,222 --> 00:24:41,056
but you don't anymore, then
someone else who will have it.

492
00:24:41,057 --> 00:24:42,601
That's so cool!

493
00:24:42,602 --> 00:24:45,312
This is something you'd wear
with Converse in 2002.

494
00:24:45,313 --> 00:24:46,688
Yeah, maybe.

495
00:24:46,689 --> 00:24:49,606
Um, I think this is a purse.
These are also swim trunks.

496
00:24:49,607 --> 00:24:50,901
That's underwear.

497
00:24:50,902 --> 00:24:53,778
That's what I feel
uncomfortable touching.

498
00:24:53,779 --> 00:24:57,280
- It's just such a cute shirt.
- I mean, it stretches.

499
00:24:57,281 --> 00:24:58,825
I mean, maybe.

500
00:24:58,826 --> 00:25:01,576
- What are you guys doing?
- Stretching it!

501
00:25:01,577 --> 00:25:04,454
- Ooh! Is that...?
- Fishnets.

502
00:25:04,455 --> 00:25:05,789
That's so cool!

503
00:25:05,790 --> 00:25:06,999
I mean, if you get bored you
can just chop the feet off...

504
00:25:07,000 --> 00:25:09,000
- Okay, what else?
- ...and wear it as a shirt.

505
00:25:10,587 --> 00:25:12,505
Absolutely.

506
00:25:12,506 --> 00:25:14,133
There's gowns in here.

507
00:25:14,134 --> 00:25:15,924
There's full-on gowns.
I love gowns.

508
00:25:15,925 --> 00:25:17,803
I want just like a big ole-

509
00:25:17,804 --> 00:25:20,972
One of my friends found
a 3-piece suit in here.

510
00:25:20,973 --> 00:25:23,348
I was thinking of
wearing a dress to grad,

511
00:25:23,349 --> 00:25:26,687
and this could totally be a
good grad dress because, like,

512
00:25:26,688 --> 00:25:29,440
I present more
masculine at school...

513
00:25:29,441 --> 00:25:31,066
'cause, like, I feel like...

514
00:25:31,067 --> 00:25:33,567
there's like kind of a
disparity between like...

515
00:25:33,568 --> 00:25:36,112
Fem- feminine clothing can
be like either feminine

516
00:25:36,113 --> 00:25:37,697
or masculine,
you know.

517
00:25:37,698 --> 00:25:41,034
But like, masculine
clothing is just masculine.

518
00:25:41,035 --> 00:25:43,411
I like some feminine
things, like, or like,

519
00:25:43,412 --> 00:25:45,163
"feminine" things,
like makeup,

520
00:25:45,164 --> 00:25:47,289
or cosplaying as
female characters,

521
00:25:47,290 --> 00:25:49,875
which lots of people
don't understand.

522
00:25:49,876 --> 00:25:53,172
It's like people think that
because you are transgender,

523
00:25:53,173 --> 00:25:56,048
you can't like things
of different genders,

524
00:25:56,049 --> 00:25:59,928
like, you have to stick
in a straight, square box.

525
00:25:59,929 --> 00:26:01,220
I have a thing
for turtlenecks.

526
00:26:01,221 --> 00:26:02,181
It's a really
pretty turtleneck.

527
00:26:02,182 --> 00:26:03,431
Yeah, it's so nice!

528
00:26:03,432 --> 00:26:04,767
And like, the
material's nice too.

529
00:26:04,768 --> 00:26:06,017
And it would look so
good with these jeans.

530
00:26:06,018 --> 00:26:09,145
And the hat,
oh, my God.

531
00:26:09,146 --> 00:26:11,897
It doesn't make sense to want
someone to only like one thing

532
00:26:11,898 --> 00:26:13,650
just because it's
been set that way...

533
00:26:13,651 --> 00:26:16,152
when you can like
whatever you want,

534
00:26:16,153 --> 00:26:17,612
whether it's
masculine or feminine,

535
00:26:17,613 --> 00:26:20,364
whether or not you are
masculine or feminine.

536
00:26:20,365 --> 00:26:22,825
Like, I want to
look like a cowboy.

537
00:26:22,826 --> 00:26:24,495
I want to date a cowboy.

538
00:26:24,496 --> 00:26:26,120
I want to be a cowboy,
all of it.

539
00:26:26,121 --> 00:26:28,248
I want everything
related to cowboys.

540
00:26:28,249 --> 00:26:30,249
- I keep coming back to this.
- It's really pretty.

541
00:26:30,250 --> 00:26:32,170
- It's so pretty.
- Yeah.

542
00:26:32,503 --> 00:26:34,545
Ah, there's binders
just over there.

543
00:26:34,546 --> 00:26:37,674
And honestly, whole
vibe rainbow one.

544
00:26:40,719 --> 00:26:43,346
I think it's too
big for me though.

545
00:26:43,347 --> 00:26:45,264
I have obtained a binder.

546
00:26:45,265 --> 00:26:47,017
- I've also obtained a binder.
- Nice.

547
00:26:47,018 --> 00:26:50,520
I, historically, have never
been comfortable with the

548
00:26:50,521 --> 00:26:54,106
changes that my body went
through during puberty.

549
00:26:54,107 --> 00:26:56,901
I think binding is a really
good resource for people

550
00:26:56,902 --> 00:26:59,612
who experience a lot of
discomfort and dysphoria

551
00:26:59,613 --> 00:27:01,322
in relation to their chest.

552
00:27:01,323 --> 00:27:03,490
I know I love my binder.

553
00:27:03,491 --> 00:27:05,160
I- it gives me...

554
00:27:05,161 --> 00:27:07,120
a real sense of,
like, being myself.

555
00:27:07,121 --> 00:27:08,746
Lots of gender euphoria.

556
00:27:08,747 --> 00:27:11,039
First time I wore it,
I'm pretty sure I cried...

557
00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:12,334
'Cause I was just
so happy with

558
00:27:12,335 --> 00:27:13,501
the way that my body looked.

559
00:27:13,961 --> 00:27:16,045
Didn't you see that
they have rainbow ones?

560
00:27:16,046 --> 00:27:18,047
- I did not.
- They have rainbow ones.

561
00:27:18,048 --> 00:27:19,214
They're a size too large
for me, but like...

562
00:27:19,215 --> 00:27:20,549
I want to get one
for my friend, too.

563
00:27:20,550 --> 00:27:22,093
- They have rainbow whats?
- Binders.

564
00:27:22,094 --> 00:27:24,178
I know it's bad to
put two binders on...

565
00:27:24,179 --> 00:27:25,262
Extra large though.

566
00:27:25,263 --> 00:27:26,431
...but I kind of
want to do it.

567
00:27:26,432 --> 00:27:29,351
And, I know that I have
to be careful with it.

568
00:27:29,352 --> 00:27:31,978
After a while of wearing it,
your ribs do start to hurt.

569
00:27:31,979 --> 00:27:33,145
So, I know it's not-

570
00:27:33,146 --> 00:27:34,896
it's absolutely
not a permanent fix,

571
00:27:34,897 --> 00:27:37,066
and you have to be
really careful with it.

572
00:27:37,067 --> 00:27:38,986
But, the binder
really boosted

573
00:27:38,987 --> 00:27:40,444
my self-confidence a lot.

574
00:27:40,445 --> 00:27:44,199
Like, wow, I like how my body
looks again. That's cool.

575
00:27:44,200 --> 00:27:46,116
I would like,
someday,

576
00:27:46,117 --> 00:27:47,785
to be able to
get top surgery,

577
00:27:47,786 --> 00:27:50,538
but that's not an option
for me at the moment.

578
00:27:50,539 --> 00:27:54,041
I have talked to my
mom about it, and...

579
00:27:57,296 --> 00:27:58,713
That that's a no.

580
00:27:58,714 --> 00:28:01,673
That's a no for them
while I'm living here.

581
00:28:09,267 --> 00:28:11,642
In all fairness, there's no
not-cringe-y way to come out.

582
00:28:11,643 --> 00:28:13,061
It's always cringe-y.

583
00:28:13,478 --> 00:28:14,937
I mean, I feel
like it's less cringe-y

584
00:28:14,938 --> 00:28:16,021
when it's an accident.

585
00:28:16,022 --> 00:28:17,816
- You know?
- Yeah.

586
00:28:17,817 --> 00:28:20,152
It's like, oops.

587
00:28:22,487 --> 00:28:24,614
I identify as a man.

588
00:28:24,615 --> 00:28:26,575
Ah, but my parents don't know.

589
00:28:26,576 --> 00:28:29,660
They think this camp is
just an LGBTQ, like,

590
00:28:29,661 --> 00:28:32,704
safe space, like a
camp for all people

591
00:28:32,705 --> 00:28:35,499
of the LGBTQ community,
which it is.

592
00:28:35,500 --> 00:28:39,254
But they think I'm just
going because I'm bisexual.

593
00:28:39,255 --> 00:28:41,672
I'm gonna come out to my
mom in the way that

594
00:28:41,673 --> 00:28:45,008
gives me less conversation.

595
00:28:45,009 --> 00:28:46,844
I didn't even come
out as bisexual.

596
00:28:46,845 --> 00:28:49,056
I got outed 'cause my
parents searched my phone,

597
00:28:49,057 --> 00:28:51,767
and I was talking about it
with a partner at the time.

598
00:28:51,768 --> 00:28:53,935
And I was like...

599
00:28:53,936 --> 00:28:55,645
And I'm sitting at the
kitchen table, sobbing,

600
00:28:55,646 --> 00:28:57,480
and I'm like-

601
00:28:57,481 --> 00:28:59,106
And they're like, "Did you
think we didn't know?"

602
00:28:59,107 --> 00:29:01,691
And I was like...

603
00:29:01,692 --> 00:29:04,278
Just gender, and just the
whole basis of like

604
00:29:04,279 --> 00:29:05,989
who I am...

605
00:29:05,990 --> 00:29:08,615
I prefer to keep it
like briefer so,

606
00:29:08,616 --> 00:29:11,076
just keeping brief
conversation to let them know

607
00:29:11,077 --> 00:29:12,121
who I am.

608
00:29:13,914 --> 00:29:15,665
I haven't, yet.

609
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:19,460
It's just because of the
way things are normalized,

610
00:29:19,461 --> 00:29:21,379
and the way society is,

611
00:29:21,380 --> 00:29:23,547
it is a big conversation,
and it feels like

612
00:29:23,548 --> 00:29:25,842
it has to be a big
conversation.

613
00:29:25,843 --> 00:29:28,970
But, um...

614
00:29:28,971 --> 00:29:31,597
It's just like I just want
to be able to be who I am

615
00:29:31,598 --> 00:29:33,348
without having to have

616
00:29:33,349 --> 00:29:34,977
a super long
conversation about it,

617
00:29:34,978 --> 00:29:37,853
or have an awkward
conversation about it because...

618
00:29:37,854 --> 00:29:40,190
it's not a big,
huge topic.

619
00:29:40,191 --> 00:29:41,651
It's just me.

620
00:29:45,404 --> 00:29:47,905
Yeah, she's knows it's like a
big, queer camp.

621
00:29:47,906 --> 00:29:50,156
But like, she thinks I'm just
here 'cause I'm bisexual,

622
00:29:50,157 --> 00:29:51,575
and I was like...
- "And".

623
00:29:51,576 --> 00:29:53,745
"There's something
you don't know." Yes!

624
00:29:53,746 --> 00:29:55,330
"And..." I was like...

625
00:30:00,001 --> 00:30:02,586
She was just like,
"How's your first day been?"

626
00:30:02,587 --> 00:30:04,547
And then, like a
smiley face emoji.

627
00:30:04,548 --> 00:30:07,258
So, I'm just gonna say,
"Good, I came out as trans."

628
00:30:07,259 --> 00:30:09,803
Smiley face emoji.
I was like-

629
00:30:09,804 --> 00:30:12,722
And she's probably
gonna be like, "What?"

630
00:30:12,723 --> 00:30:14,556
Yeah, it's just chilling.

631
00:30:14,557 --> 00:30:16,142
Your mom thinks you're typing
this really long paragraph.

632
00:30:16,143 --> 00:30:17,686
She's like,
"Oh, my gosh!"

633
00:30:20,147 --> 00:30:21,146
Do it, do it, do it!

634
00:30:21,147 --> 00:30:22,772
- Alright...
- Do it, do it!

635
00:30:22,773 --> 00:30:25,901
- You got it.
- Yeah.

636
00:30:25,902 --> 00:30:28,320
Alright...
alright, alright, alright!

637
00:30:28,321 --> 00:30:29,697
Done!

638
00:30:31,951 --> 00:30:34,118
- Wait. Did it go through?
- Let's check.

639
00:30:34,119 --> 00:30:35,661
Yes.

640
00:30:37,705 --> 00:30:39,249
Oh, my God.

641
00:30:43,211 --> 00:30:44,670
Okay, how do you feel?

642
00:30:44,671 --> 00:30:46,380
I don't know.

643
00:30:46,381 --> 00:30:47,673
I don't want her to respond.

644
00:30:47,674 --> 00:30:49,633
Yeah, you're like...

645
00:30:49,634 --> 00:30:51,761
Ugh!

646
00:30:51,762 --> 00:30:54,262
Ugh.

647
00:31:09,321 --> 00:31:10,905
Perfect.

648
00:31:12,365 --> 00:31:16,201
Marshall! Marshall!

649
00:31:16,202 --> 00:31:17,912
The power of
my friends.

650
00:31:17,913 --> 00:31:20,539
I was able to, to
burst this flame.

651
00:31:20,540 --> 00:31:22,415
Yes!

652
00:31:22,416 --> 00:31:25,461
You're welcome.

653
00:31:25,462 --> 00:31:28,380
Welcome to the
Camp fYrefly fire.

654
00:31:32,259 --> 00:31:35,012
What I would love to
start our night with...

655
00:31:35,013 --> 00:31:38,391
is a spooky,
spooky story.

656
00:31:38,392 --> 00:31:40,308
Does anyone have a
spooky, spooky story

657
00:31:40,309 --> 00:31:41,268
they want to share?
- Me!

658
00:31:41,269 --> 00:31:43,687
Yes? Okay,
come on down.

659
00:31:47,276 --> 00:31:50,027
So, after Googling "DIY
top surgery" on Wiki-How...

660
00:31:50,028 --> 00:31:52,614
- No!
- I did, it was a dark time.

661
00:31:52,615 --> 00:31:55,825
I decided, I must
obtain a binder.

662
00:31:55,826 --> 00:31:58,370
I have no perception of
what my body looks like.

663
00:31:58,371 --> 00:32:00,496
So, I just picked a size,

664
00:32:00,497 --> 00:32:03,665
and it immediately
gets stuck, like this.

665
00:32:03,666 --> 00:32:06,044
No!

666
00:32:06,045 --> 00:32:08,087
And so, I'm like, well,
this is really awkward,

667
00:32:08,088 --> 00:32:10,213
but it's fine. I'm just
gonna go get my mom.

668
00:32:10,214 --> 00:32:12,592
So, I step out of
the stall, awkwardly,

669
00:32:12,593 --> 00:32:17,096
and I walk to the door,
and I'm like, "Mom! Help!"

670
00:32:17,097 --> 00:32:19,516
And she doesn't respond
because she's left me there.

671
00:32:19,517 --> 00:32:22,393
Thank you.

672
00:32:23,979 --> 00:32:26,940
I didn't know transitioning
was an option.

673
00:32:26,941 --> 00:32:28,691
There's a trans
support community,

674
00:32:28,692 --> 00:32:30,651
and they helped me
find things out.

675
00:32:30,652 --> 00:32:35,114
They helped me about
all my gender dysphoria.

676
00:32:35,115 --> 00:32:38,075
And, they got me
on hormone therapy.

677
00:32:38,076 --> 00:32:39,910
Medically transitioning
is my personal preference,

678
00:32:39,911 --> 00:32:42,454
but nobody else has to
medically transition

679
00:32:42,455 --> 00:32:43,956
unless they want to.

680
00:32:43,957 --> 00:32:44,833
They don't have to
do it because

681
00:32:44,834 --> 00:32:46,374
they feel like
they have to.

682
00:32:46,375 --> 00:32:48,752
It's all what somebody
is comfortable with.

683
00:32:48,753 --> 00:32:51,380
When trans people
encounter cis people,

684
00:32:51,381 --> 00:32:53,339
cis people will
always ask about,

685
00:32:53,340 --> 00:32:56,886
"Oh, how does it feel to be
in a different body?"

686
00:32:56,887 --> 00:32:59,137
Or surgeries, or whatever,
and it's always

687
00:32:59,138 --> 00:33:02,392
about the trans person
in a bubble,

688
00:33:02,393 --> 00:33:06,812
when I find the vast
majority of my discomfort

689
00:33:06,813 --> 00:33:09,606
as a trans person is
from cis people.

690
00:33:14,821 --> 00:33:17,489
Guys, can we do a little,
maybe like a check in

691
00:33:17,490 --> 00:33:19,741
on how the day went?

692
00:33:19,742 --> 00:33:22,076
People have been really nice
today, so that was good.

693
00:33:22,077 --> 00:33:23,954
- Aw.
- Who wants to go next?

694
00:33:23,955 --> 00:33:25,749
We found my bracelet.

695
00:33:29,545 --> 00:33:31,922
It takes me a while to get
comfortable with a group.

696
00:33:31,923 --> 00:33:35,342
So, I just try to stay, like,
quiet for a bit until I,

697
00:33:35,343 --> 00:33:37,218
'til I get comfortable.

698
00:33:38,679 --> 00:33:40,346
Supper was really good,
I'm gonna be honest.

699
00:33:41,640 --> 00:33:44,557
I've met people who
are adopted, are Black,

700
00:33:44,558 --> 00:33:46,435
are Queer, or Haitian.

701
00:33:46,436 --> 00:33:48,020
But, I've just, I've never
really met that

702
00:33:48,021 --> 00:33:51,691
whole package
together, I guess.

703
00:33:51,692 --> 00:33:54,151
It feels kind of like no one
can understand

704
00:33:54,152 --> 00:33:55,861
some things about you.
I mean, obviously,

705
00:33:55,862 --> 00:33:57,780
there's a lot of stuff that
my friends and I

706
00:33:57,781 --> 00:33:59,699
have in common,
but I feel like there is

707
00:33:59,700 --> 00:34:02,368
a lot of stuff that
they don't get.

708
00:34:02,369 --> 00:34:04,078
And sometimes, like,

709
00:34:04,079 --> 00:34:06,579
they just don't try
to understand.

710
00:34:08,083 --> 00:34:11,252
Okay, guys! Maybe let's
stop the chatting!

711
00:34:11,253 --> 00:34:13,879
Let's turn off our lights,
and let's go to bed.

712
00:34:13,880 --> 00:34:15,547
No!

713
00:34:15,548 --> 00:34:17,008
It would be nice to
meet somebody who can

714
00:34:17,009 --> 00:34:20,593
understand me on
another level.

715
00:34:20,594 --> 00:34:22,638
Okay, guys, go to bed!

716
00:34:22,639 --> 00:34:25,306
No! No!

717
00:34:50,835 --> 00:34:53,752
I'm signing up for
the drag one, I think.

718
00:34:59,592 --> 00:35:02,678
Welcome, I know you folks
have had lots of time to

719
00:35:02,679 --> 00:35:04,221
get to know
each other, but...

720
00:35:04,222 --> 00:35:05,973
I would love to get
to know you folks as well.

721
00:35:05,974 --> 00:35:07,517
I can start-
my name is Marshall.

722
00:35:07,518 --> 00:35:09,183
My pronouns are they/them,

723
00:35:09,184 --> 00:35:12,272
and something that makes me
feel fierce is lip syncing.

724
00:35:14,483 --> 00:35:16,442
You saw that coming,
yeah, yeah.

725
00:35:16,443 --> 00:35:18,694
I just want to get to know
you and how you move,

726
00:35:18,695 --> 00:35:19,904
so I'm gonna play a song,

727
00:35:19,905 --> 00:35:22,071
and you can all find any
space in this area.

728
00:35:22,072 --> 00:35:25,701
Feel free to jam, do whatever
you have to do just to get

729
00:35:25,702 --> 00:35:28,995
all of that fierceness
out of you, okay?

730
00:35:30,081 --> 00:35:32,790
♪ STANDING WHERE
I AM NOW. ♪

731
00:35:32,791 --> 00:35:34,919
♪ STANDING UP
AT ALL. ♪

732
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:37,087
You have all of these tools.
You can move with your hips,

733
00:35:37,088 --> 00:35:38,964
you can move with
your shoulders.

734
00:35:38,965 --> 00:35:42,134
♪ ...FEELING LIKE I WAS
NEVER GONNA SEE MYSELF. ♪

735
00:35:42,135 --> 00:35:43,134
♪ AT THE FINISH LINE. ♪

736
00:35:43,135 --> 00:35:45,928
Now I'd love for us to focus on
some facial expressions.

737
00:35:45,929 --> 00:35:49,142
♪ HANGING ON
TO PARTS OF ME. ♪

738
00:35:49,143 --> 00:35:50,977
Love it!

739
00:35:54,063 --> 00:35:57,191
I feel like it's very
important to kids growing up,

740
00:35:57,192 --> 00:36:00,944
and anyone in the community,
to see that there is...

741
00:36:00,945 --> 00:36:02,781
a place where people can
come together and

742
00:36:02,782 --> 00:36:04,531
don't have to worry
about being judged.

743
00:36:04,532 --> 00:36:07,410
♪ SEND ALL THOSE
VILLAINS AFTER ME. ♪

744
00:36:07,411 --> 00:36:09,870
I felt that I need
to act up, act tough.

745
00:36:09,871 --> 00:36:13,874
And, act a certain way
so people can like me.

746
00:36:13,875 --> 00:36:15,334
But now, it's just
lots of fun

747
00:36:15,335 --> 00:36:16,544
getting to know new people,

748
00:36:16,545 --> 00:36:18,754
and getting away from home
for a bit, and just...

749
00:36:18,755 --> 00:36:20,672
being able to, again,
let my guard down and

750
00:36:20,673 --> 00:36:22,299
just be myself.

751
00:36:22,300 --> 00:36:24,343
You're beautiful butterflies!

752
00:36:25,594 --> 00:36:27,930
When you're a part of that
community of being queer,

753
00:36:27,931 --> 00:36:29,890
you know,
we're very different...

754
00:36:29,891 --> 00:36:31,933
for something that
we can't control,

755
00:36:31,934 --> 00:36:35,230
but, like, that's just
kind of how it is.

756
00:36:35,231 --> 00:36:38,022
But, I just feel like we
forget there's little things,

757
00:36:38,023 --> 00:36:39,732
that sometimes people
can be hurtful.

758
00:36:39,733 --> 00:36:41,442
I don't know how
to explain it, but

759
00:36:41,443 --> 00:36:43,611
I just find
that kind of hard.

760
00:36:43,612 --> 00:36:46,073
I don't know, a lot of people
seem, like, to be closer,

761
00:36:46,074 --> 00:36:47,366
and I'm kind of just there.

762
00:36:47,367 --> 00:36:49,368
But it'll only get
better, I'm just...

763
00:36:49,369 --> 00:36:52,163
Yeah, been really anxious,
but it'll get better.

764
00:36:52,164 --> 00:36:53,790
I'm really happy
to be here though.

765
00:36:53,791 --> 00:36:56,084
Let's see
your surprised face!

766
00:36:59,255 --> 00:37:00,964
Like, I don't know,
everyone in my group,

767
00:37:00,965 --> 00:37:02,424
they got close really quickly.

768
00:37:02,425 --> 00:37:04,549
Even if I was there,
like, at the start.

769
00:37:04,550 --> 00:37:08,303
And so, that kind of like...

770
00:37:08,304 --> 00:37:10,138
I don't know, terrifies me
'cause I feel like

771
00:37:10,139 --> 00:37:12,223
I'm not gonna get
close to them.

772
00:37:19,233 --> 00:37:20,982
I remember,
in grade 4,

773
00:37:20,983 --> 00:37:22,776
I went to a private school
where we had uniforms.

774
00:37:22,777 --> 00:37:24,571
And, I had to wear a skirt.

775
00:37:24,572 --> 00:37:26,446
- Oh, yeah.
- And I was like...

776
00:37:26,447 --> 00:37:28,991
"I absolutely love this."

777
00:37:28,992 --> 00:37:31,368
My mom just kind of,
like, brought me, like,

778
00:37:31,369 --> 00:37:34,245
the dresses and skirts,
and I just like...

779
00:37:34,246 --> 00:37:35,830
like, at first I
was fine with it,

780
00:37:35,831 --> 00:37:37,624
but then I just
started to, like...

781
00:37:37,625 --> 00:37:39,669
I don't know, it just
didn't sit right.

782
00:37:39,670 --> 00:37:42,087
- It wasn't you.
- Yeah.

783
00:37:42,088 --> 00:37:44,964
In grade 4 is when
I first, like...

784
00:37:44,965 --> 00:37:47,176
questioned my sexuality.

785
00:37:47,177 --> 00:37:49,136
And then...

786
00:37:49,137 --> 00:37:52,388
and then I came out to
my mom, I was a lesbian.

787
00:37:52,389 --> 00:37:54,725
And then I came out
to her as bisexual.

788
00:37:54,726 --> 00:37:56,642
And then, I came
out to her as trans.

789
00:37:56,643 --> 00:37:59,812
And then, I came out to
her as bisexual again.

790
00:37:59,813 --> 00:38:02,774
And then I came out to
everyone as bisexual.

791
00:38:02,775 --> 00:38:04,276
And then, later on,
I came out as a lesbian,

792
00:38:04,277 --> 00:38:07,361
and then I just...
now don't label it as much.

793
00:38:07,362 --> 00:38:08,614
Yeah, that's fair.

794
00:38:08,615 --> 00:38:10,825
Kind of grade 5 is when
I kind of questioned it,

795
00:38:10,826 --> 00:38:13,160
or realized I started
to like this girl.

796
00:38:13,161 --> 00:38:15,078
And I didn't really think
about it much at first.

797
00:38:15,079 --> 00:38:16,915
So, I was like, okay.

798
00:38:16,916 --> 00:38:19,165
And then, I kind of
realized it, and then...

799
00:38:19,166 --> 00:38:20,919
I didn't get to
tell my parents.

800
00:38:20,920 --> 00:38:23,754
They found, they found out
a different way, but...

801
00:38:23,755 --> 00:38:25,672
Oh, really?
Oh, I'm sorry.

802
00:38:25,673 --> 00:38:27,008
It's okay.

803
00:38:27,009 --> 00:38:28,759
But, they're supportive
and everything,

804
00:38:28,760 --> 00:38:30,384
but I kind of just wish I
could have told them, myself.

805
00:38:30,385 --> 00:38:32,678
Yeah, yeah,
that sucks.

806
00:38:36,351 --> 00:38:37,935
Oh, yeah, yeah,
I skateboard.

807
00:38:37,936 --> 00:38:39,145
What about you?

808
00:38:39,146 --> 00:38:41,272
I can, I can skateboard.
I'm not very good at it.

809
00:38:41,273 --> 00:38:42,982
We can
skate sometime, then.

810
00:38:42,983 --> 00:38:44,232
Yeah, that'd be really fun.

811
00:38:44,233 --> 00:38:46,067
You have to teach
me some things.

812
00:38:57,914 --> 00:39:00,415
Alrighty! Oh, I'm seeing
so many beautiful looks!

813
00:39:00,416 --> 00:39:01,917
Ooh, I love this.

814
00:39:01,918 --> 00:39:03,294
I love it.

815
00:39:03,295 --> 00:39:05,294
Now, does anybody
need any help?

816
00:39:05,295 --> 00:39:06,589
Let's see yours.

817
00:39:07,965 --> 00:39:09,383
Wow...

818
00:39:09,384 --> 00:39:11,052
Do you mind if I help you out?

819
00:39:12,304 --> 00:39:14,930
Honestly, I've never done
my makeup.

820
00:39:14,931 --> 00:39:17,306
This is your first
time doing makeup?

821
00:39:17,307 --> 00:39:18,933
Really?

822
00:39:18,934 --> 00:39:20,395
Open your eyes.

823
00:39:20,396 --> 00:39:22,730
Perfect, okay, I'm just,
just gonna go in there with

824
00:39:22,731 --> 00:39:23,982
a different colour and
blend them together.

825
00:39:23,983 --> 00:39:26,276
- Okay.
- Yeah.

826
00:39:26,277 --> 00:39:27,651
Is this your first
time at camp?

827
00:39:27,652 --> 00:39:28,944
Yes.

828
00:39:28,945 --> 00:39:30,946
How did you hear
about Camp fYrefly?

829
00:39:30,947 --> 00:39:32,573
Um...

830
00:39:32,574 --> 00:39:34,534
I heard about it
a few years ago.

831
00:39:34,576 --> 00:39:36,410
Ah, when I turned
transgender.

832
00:39:36,411 --> 00:39:37,620
Yeah.

833
00:39:37,621 --> 00:39:40,622
I was about...

834
00:39:40,623 --> 00:39:41,790
10.

835
00:39:41,791 --> 00:39:43,625
Yeah, so how long
have you been out?

836
00:39:43,626 --> 00:39:46,544
Well, you could
say that I was,

837
00:39:46,545 --> 00:39:48,629
I was acting like a
girl since I was 3.

838
00:39:48,630 --> 00:39:49,799
Right.

839
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:53,343
But, I officially came out,
I think when I was 8.

840
00:39:53,344 --> 00:39:54,971
So, when I decided
I was a girl,

841
00:39:54,972 --> 00:39:56,888
I was only 8 years old.

842
00:39:56,889 --> 00:39:59,056
And, my mom
suggested that

843
00:39:59,057 --> 00:40:01,767
we waited until the
summer because

844
00:40:01,768 --> 00:40:03,520
she was like,
it would be kind of-

845
00:40:03,521 --> 00:40:05,607
it would be interesting to
finish off the year,

846
00:40:05,608 --> 00:40:07,524
and then transition
to a girl.

847
00:40:07,525 --> 00:40:09,067
Are you okay with lashes?

848
00:40:09,068 --> 00:40:11,236
- I'm okay.
- Yeah? Okay.

849
00:40:11,237 --> 00:40:12,487
Perfect...

850
00:40:14,574 --> 00:40:16,491
That whole summer,
I went as a girl.

851
00:40:16,492 --> 00:40:20,370
We went to this place in
Banff, and nobody knew...

852
00:40:20,371 --> 00:40:22,665
what my actual gender was.

853
00:40:22,666 --> 00:40:24,959
And, it was,
it was really nice.

854
00:40:24,960 --> 00:40:27,837
Let's see?
Oh, my- okay, wait.

855
00:40:27,838 --> 00:40:29,379
No, we need to
do another one.

856
00:40:29,380 --> 00:40:30,797
Let's see.

857
00:40:30,798 --> 00:40:33,634
Perfect!
I'm just gonna dry it up.

858
00:40:33,635 --> 00:40:35,134
It felt very cool.

859
00:40:35,135 --> 00:40:36,428
It was exciting.

860
00:40:36,429 --> 00:40:40,473
I could say that I was Jane,
and no one would even...

861
00:40:40,474 --> 00:40:42,308
say the opposite thing.

862
00:40:42,309 --> 00:40:44,227
And, it was, it was exciting!

863
00:40:44,228 --> 00:40:45,605
It was happy-
I was happy.

864
00:40:45,606 --> 00:40:47,357
And, how do you feel
about lip, lipstick?

865
00:40:47,358 --> 00:40:49,232
Ah, I don't mind.

866
00:40:49,233 --> 00:40:51,192
It was easy to be me.

867
00:40:54,572 --> 00:40:55,571
Are you ready to see
what you look like?

868
00:40:55,572 --> 00:40:56,573
- Yes.
- Are you excited?

869
00:40:56,574 --> 00:40:57,616
- Yes.
- Are you sure?

870
00:40:57,617 --> 00:40:58,866
- Yes!
- Okay, great.

871
00:40:58,867 --> 00:41:00,370
I'm so nervous.

872
00:41:00,371 --> 00:41:03,205
Okay...

873
00:41:03,206 --> 00:41:04,540
Oh, my goodness!

874
00:41:06,876 --> 00:41:10,754
She's beautiful!

875
00:41:10,755 --> 00:41:12,964
I've never seen this before.

876
00:41:12,965 --> 00:41:15,093
You look beautiful.

877
00:41:15,094 --> 00:41:16,759
- What do you think?
- Really nice.

878
00:41:16,760 --> 00:41:18,346
- You like it?
- Mhm.

879
00:41:18,347 --> 00:41:19,763
Good.

880
00:41:29,358 --> 00:41:31,732
Welcome to the
corrals, everybody.

881
00:41:31,733 --> 00:41:33,236
My name is Morgan.

882
00:41:33,237 --> 00:41:36,029
I am one of the
wranglers here.

883
00:41:36,030 --> 00:41:38,950
These are our horses,
or 8 of them.

884
00:41:38,951 --> 00:41:41,201
So, we're gonna
start over here,

885
00:41:41,202 --> 00:41:44,538
with this lovely lady
right here at the fence.

886
00:41:44,539 --> 00:41:46,080
Her name is Zephyr.

887
00:41:46,081 --> 00:41:48,209
And then,
on this side,

888
00:41:48,210 --> 00:41:51,087
in the really pretty pink
halter, is Eddie.

889
00:41:51,088 --> 00:41:53,379
Horses can feel your
centre of energy.

890
00:41:53,380 --> 00:41:54,674
They can feel if you're calm.

891
00:41:54,675 --> 00:41:56,508
They can feel if you're
stressed, scared,

892
00:41:56,509 --> 00:41:58,384
anxious, any of that.

893
00:41:58,385 --> 00:42:00,553
So, we want to make sure
that we're giving off

894
00:42:00,554 --> 00:42:02,723
a nice, calm energy.

895
00:42:02,724 --> 00:42:04,808
I don't like labels.

896
00:42:04,809 --> 00:42:06,767
I don't like being labeled,
but if I had to,

897
00:42:06,768 --> 00:42:08,352
it would be gender fluid.

898
00:42:08,353 --> 00:42:10,647
I've put those labels on me
just because I think

899
00:42:10,648 --> 00:42:13,401
it's what other people
will understand.

900
00:42:13,402 --> 00:42:14,817
Everyone asks,
"What's your gender?

901
00:42:14,818 --> 00:42:16,154
Like, what do
you identify as?"

902
00:42:16,155 --> 00:42:17,988
I'm just Ghoul, I'm...

903
00:42:17,989 --> 00:42:19,364
a little creature.

904
00:42:21,326 --> 00:42:22,993
Alright, I'm gonna
teach you how to

905
00:42:22,994 --> 00:42:24,660
safely approach them now,

906
00:42:24,661 --> 00:42:26,120
and then we'll
get into partners,

907
00:42:26,121 --> 00:42:28,874
and we'll go meet a horse.
Sound good?

908
00:42:28,875 --> 00:42:30,375
Hi, Bandit.

909
00:42:30,376 --> 00:42:32,754
You can come up and
say hi now, if you'd like.

910
00:42:32,755 --> 00:42:34,504
I'm scared of horses.

911
00:42:34,505 --> 00:42:36,214
Oh...

912
00:42:40,304 --> 00:42:42,553
That's about as close
as I can get right now.

913
00:42:45,432 --> 00:42:47,727
They take some adjusting,
that's for sure.

914
00:42:47,728 --> 00:42:49,602
Yeah, they're very big.

915
00:42:49,603 --> 00:42:53,857
And I feel like this
one's judging me.

916
00:42:53,858 --> 00:42:56,234
At school, it was really
easy for me to feel judged

917
00:42:56,235 --> 00:42:57,861
by the people around me.

918
00:42:57,862 --> 00:42:59,571
I didn't look
like anybody else.

919
00:42:59,572 --> 00:43:01,573
I didn't dress
like anybody else.

920
00:43:01,574 --> 00:43:04,285
I didn't act like
anybody else.

921
00:43:04,286 --> 00:43:06,035
So, to get around our horses-
once we've done that-

922
00:43:06,036 --> 00:43:08,955
is we just do
a nice bum hug.

923
00:43:08,956 --> 00:43:12,125
Just like this.

924
00:43:12,126 --> 00:43:14,002
I tend to disengage
when I feel like

925
00:43:14,003 --> 00:43:16,214
people are judging me.

926
00:43:16,215 --> 00:43:17,756
Warm.

927
00:43:17,757 --> 00:43:20,759
It's just easier that way,
instead of...

928
00:43:20,760 --> 00:43:24,596
actually dealing with it.

929
00:43:24,597 --> 00:43:26,431
Feels really soft.

930
00:43:26,432 --> 00:43:29,352
It feels, sort of like

931
00:43:29,353 --> 00:43:31,812
rug that I have at my house.

932
00:43:31,813 --> 00:43:34,105
My whole life,
I've felt like

933
00:43:34,106 --> 00:43:38,317
I was pushed to
pretend I was okay.

934
00:43:38,318 --> 00:43:40,111
And I kept pushing myself

935
00:43:40,112 --> 00:43:43,406
until there was that
breaking point.

936
00:43:43,407 --> 00:43:45,366
And then, at that point,
I had to accept that

937
00:43:45,367 --> 00:43:47,285
I was different,
you know?

938
00:43:53,335 --> 00:43:57,129
I'm gonna keep getting up
and get better and

939
00:43:57,130 --> 00:43:59,339
get back at it,
no matter what.

940
00:44:08,307 --> 00:44:10,017
You are terrifying,
but hey.

941
00:44:11,853 --> 00:44:14,230
Coming to this
realization made me realize

942
00:44:14,231 --> 00:44:16,107
I am a force to be
reckoned with,

943
00:44:16,108 --> 00:44:17,774
and I can do anything.

944
00:44:17,775 --> 00:44:19,942
Also, I'm overheating
because it's hot and

945
00:44:19,943 --> 00:44:22,236
I'm wearing all black.
- It's really hot.

946
00:44:22,237 --> 00:44:23,906
Thank you for the shade.

947
00:44:23,907 --> 00:44:26,283
Thank you, good sir,
thank you.

948
00:44:26,284 --> 00:44:29,535
Sir, madam?
Horses don't have gender.

949
00:44:31,873 --> 00:44:33,205
Sir? Ma'am?

950
00:44:33,206 --> 00:44:34,876
I'm so scared of hitting
you with my crutch.

951
00:44:43,634 --> 00:44:45,259
Look at this glitter glue,
it's like...

952
00:44:45,260 --> 00:44:46,596
It's beautiful.

953
00:44:46,597 --> 00:44:48,178
Manessa, have you done
your happy box yet?

954
00:44:48,179 --> 00:44:49,138
I have not.

955
00:44:49,139 --> 00:44:51,223
So, basically,
your happy box is,

956
00:44:51,224 --> 00:44:52,977
people can put notes in it.

957
00:44:52,978 --> 00:44:55,770
You can put notes in other
people's happy boxes.

958
00:44:55,771 --> 00:44:58,607
You can decorate it.
Put your name on it.

959
00:45:08,409 --> 00:45:10,451
And I said, "Astrid
thinks you're cute."

960
00:45:20,130 --> 00:45:23,589
When I came out,
the family I was living with-

961
00:45:23,590 --> 00:45:25,718
so they have like a whole
bunch of younger children-

962
00:45:25,719 --> 00:45:27,053
I came out as bi.

963
00:45:27,054 --> 00:45:28,928
I was like, "Hey,
there's this girl I like.

964
00:45:28,929 --> 00:45:30,348
I want her to come over."

965
00:45:30,349 --> 00:45:33,017
And they're like, "Okay,
yeah, like we support you.

966
00:45:33,018 --> 00:45:36,602
But, don't kiss her
in front of my kids."

967
00:45:36,603 --> 00:45:39,647
I wish that they would've
been more understanding,

968
00:45:39,648 --> 00:45:42,942
and be like, "Yeah, we can
explain it to our kids."

969
00:45:42,943 --> 00:45:46,906
It felt like so sad
to not be supported.

970
00:45:46,907 --> 00:45:49,156
And then it feels like,
oh, I did something wrong.

971
00:45:49,157 --> 00:45:52,745
My mom is just like lacking
in some of that understanding.

972
00:45:52,746 --> 00:45:55,288
So, I think it's
just like the more-

973
00:45:55,289 --> 00:45:56,957
- She learns.
- She learns!

974
00:45:56,958 --> 00:45:59,625
And she's growing,
and she has grown.

975
00:45:59,626 --> 00:46:01,794
So, it's like those
people who, like,

976
00:46:01,795 --> 00:46:04,214
don't necessarily
understand it...

977
00:46:04,215 --> 00:46:06,883
all, but like, are looking
for more information,

978
00:46:06,884 --> 00:46:08,928
and aren't fully there yet,

979
00:46:08,929 --> 00:46:11,428
but those are like the
best kind of people.

980
00:46:11,429 --> 00:46:13,640
Yeah!

981
00:46:17,311 --> 00:46:19,647
I'm like a month
clean from self-harm.

982
00:46:19,648 --> 00:46:22,857
Like, as soon as something
goes wrong, it was my go-to.

983
00:46:22,858 --> 00:46:24,276
It's getting better.

984
00:46:24,277 --> 00:46:27,404
And, any time I was
struggling with it,

985
00:46:27,405 --> 00:46:31,116
I always covered up 'cause I
didn't want people to know.

986
00:46:31,117 --> 00:46:34,370
But then, as soon as I wore
like a t-shirt or a tank top,

987
00:46:34,371 --> 00:46:36,955
everyone was like,
"What's that on your arm?"

988
00:46:36,956 --> 00:46:40,375
My thing is that I just had
to learn to be kind to myself.

989
00:46:40,376 --> 00:46:42,794
Like, especially when I
was trying to get clean.

990
00:46:42,795 --> 00:46:45,504
It was like, when I failed,
I felt so horrible.

991
00:46:45,505 --> 00:46:48,216
And then the second I was
able to, like, progress,

992
00:46:48,217 --> 00:46:49,801
and get to that
one-month mark,

993
00:46:49,802 --> 00:46:52,388
that two-month mark,
was when I stopped being

994
00:46:52,389 --> 00:46:54,763
mad at myself for doing it.

995
00:46:54,764 --> 00:46:56,975
I was like, this is a
stress response

996
00:46:56,976 --> 00:46:58,602
that is out of my control.

997
00:46:58,603 --> 00:47:01,397
I am trying to make
myself feel better.

998
00:47:01,398 --> 00:47:04,441
I do get comments about it,
about my scars,

999
00:47:04,442 --> 00:47:06,861
'cause I do have healed...

1000
00:47:06,862 --> 00:47:11,281
self-harm scars in
multiple places on my body.

1001
00:47:11,282 --> 00:47:14,576
But I, I don't hate
my scars,

1002
00:47:14,577 --> 00:47:16,245
and I don't dislike them.

1003
00:47:16,246 --> 00:47:19,622
I love my scars because
when I look at them,

1004
00:47:19,623 --> 00:47:21,584
I see that they're healed.

1005
00:47:21,585 --> 00:47:25,212
And they're done, and I can
look at them and remember,

1006
00:47:25,213 --> 00:47:26,964
I don't need to
do that anymore.

1007
00:47:26,965 --> 00:47:28,299
I love your pants, honestly.

1008
00:47:28,300 --> 00:47:29,758
I'd pay you for
pants like that.

1009
00:47:29,759 --> 00:47:31,718
Oh, I got shorts from
the clothing swap,

1010
00:47:31,719 --> 00:47:32,718
and I'm gonna do
that to them.

1011
00:47:32,719 --> 00:47:34,763
Yes, do it,
it's so much fun.

1012
00:47:56,827 --> 00:47:58,995
Reminder, on the
first day when

1013
00:47:58,996 --> 00:48:01,874
your pods made community
guidelines together,

1014
00:48:01,875 --> 00:48:04,292
a gentle reminder around
romantic relationships

1015
00:48:04,293 --> 00:48:05,877
being built at camp.

1016
00:48:05,878 --> 00:48:07,921
After the camp,
for sure.

1017
00:48:07,922 --> 00:48:11,174
Woohoo!

1018
00:48:11,175 --> 00:48:13,509
Because of what
happened at my school,

1019
00:48:13,510 --> 00:48:17,388
I feel like my trust has gone
down for a lot of people.

1020
00:48:17,389 --> 00:48:19,265
Opening up to someone new
who comes in my life

1021
00:48:19,266 --> 00:48:20,768
is really difficult for me.

1022
00:48:26,817 --> 00:48:28,691
Nice!

1023
00:48:28,692 --> 00:48:30,486
But, the more
time that passes,

1024
00:48:30,487 --> 00:48:33,406
just having that connection
makes it a lot easier

1025
00:48:33,407 --> 00:48:35,281
to open up and to
trust that person.

1026
00:48:45,041 --> 00:48:46,959
I'm so
happy right now.

1027
00:49:06,356 --> 00:49:08,232
If you guys could have
an ideal dream planet,

1028
00:49:08,233 --> 00:49:09,482
what would it be?

1029
00:49:09,483 --> 00:49:10,984
- Gay.
- Dream planet?

1030
00:49:12,318 --> 00:49:14,321
- It would be gay.
- Gay?

1031
00:49:14,322 --> 00:49:15,656
It would be full
of the queers,

1032
00:49:15,657 --> 00:49:17,281
and we would have
the best time.

1033
00:49:17,282 --> 00:49:20,493
Oh, I just remember,
like I was so...

1034
00:49:20,494 --> 00:49:21,995
Even though this
is a queer camp,

1035
00:49:21,996 --> 00:49:24,080
I was so scared to come here.

1036
00:49:24,081 --> 00:49:26,207
Just because I was like,
what if they don't accept me?

1037
00:49:26,208 --> 00:49:28,084
What if I'm not,
like, trans enough?

1038
00:49:28,085 --> 00:49:30,212
And then, to get here,
like, day one,

1039
00:49:30,213 --> 00:49:32,464
and have you ripping off my
bind in the washroom

1040
00:49:32,465 --> 00:49:33,714
'cause I was wearing
the wrong size-

1041
00:49:33,715 --> 00:49:36,718
just judgemental for
all the good reasons.

1042
00:49:36,719 --> 00:49:38,846
That sounds violent-
I helped you, aggressively.

1043
00:49:38,847 --> 00:49:41,263
It was very stuck.
I was wearing like three.

1044
00:49:41,264 --> 00:49:42,765
Oh, my gosh!

1045
00:49:42,766 --> 00:49:44,642
You were wearing two,
and I was very angry.

1046
00:49:44,643 --> 00:49:46,312
I didn't know you could
wear more than one binder.

1047
00:49:46,313 --> 00:49:48,187
- You don't.
- You don't!

1048
00:49:48,188 --> 00:49:49,772
- It'ss very bad for you.
- Don't do it.

1049
00:49:49,773 --> 00:49:51,524
I had a feeling that
was a bad thing.

1050
00:49:51,525 --> 00:49:54,694
- You end up wheezing.
- I was wheezing so bad.

1051
00:49:54,695 --> 00:49:56,196
Camp has taught
me that, like,

1052
00:49:56,197 --> 00:49:58,739
I can just be
whatever I want to be.

1053
00:49:58,740 --> 00:50:01,868
Like, I can be like a trans
femme with hairy legs.

1054
00:50:01,869 --> 00:50:05,538
And I don't gotta, I don't
gotta apologize for that.

1055
00:50:05,539 --> 00:50:07,124
There's the Big Dipper.

1056
00:50:07,125 --> 00:50:09,209
I see a triangle,
which is pretty sick.

1057
00:50:09,210 --> 00:50:10,584
No, it's kind of
like sideways.

1058
00:50:10,585 --> 00:50:12,629
If you turn your
head diagonally,

1059
00:50:12,630 --> 00:50:13,464
then the Big Dicker-

1060
00:50:13,465 --> 00:50:15,174
- What's the Big Dipper?
- Big Dicker!

1061
00:50:15,175 --> 00:50:18,468
I said, "The Big Dicker!"

1062
00:50:18,469 --> 00:50:20,721
Oh, my gosh!

1063
00:50:20,722 --> 00:50:22,305
What?!

1064
00:50:22,306 --> 00:50:23,431
You know what's
kind of cool?

1065
00:50:23,432 --> 00:50:24,431
What?

1066
00:50:24,432 --> 00:50:25,892
If there were arguably
aliens on another planet,

1067
00:50:25,893 --> 00:50:27,727
and they had a
massive telescope,

1068
00:50:27,728 --> 00:50:29,230
and they looked
down at Earth,

1069
00:50:29,231 --> 00:50:31,732
they could probably still
see the dinosaurs being here

1070
00:50:31,733 --> 00:50:33,732
because the light would
be just reaching them.

1071
00:50:33,733 --> 00:50:35,861
Why am I jealous
of aliens now?

1072
00:50:35,862 --> 00:50:37,821
I want to see
Triceratops just vibing.

1073
00:50:40,074 --> 00:50:42,366
Yeah!

1074
00:50:47,039 --> 00:50:49,207
So, if we can give a warm
welcome to our Rainbow Elders

1075
00:50:49,208 --> 00:50:51,084
that have joined us today.

1076
00:50:53,838 --> 00:50:55,004
Hi.

1077
00:50:55,005 --> 00:50:58,133
We are the Rainbow
Elders Calgary.

1078
00:50:58,134 --> 00:51:01,593
What we do is, we try to
connect with young people

1079
00:51:01,594 --> 00:51:05,890
because we know that it's not
an easy journey, being gay.

1080
00:51:05,891 --> 00:51:08,852
I was raised in a...

1081
00:51:08,853 --> 00:51:11,937
fanatical Christian home.

1082
00:51:11,938 --> 00:51:14,899
There was no discussion
about sexual identity,

1083
00:51:14,900 --> 00:51:16,484
gender identity.

1084
00:51:16,485 --> 00:51:19,279
Not only was it
a closed subject,

1085
00:51:19,280 --> 00:51:22,906
but bringing it up would
get you in trouble.

1086
00:51:22,907 --> 00:51:27,035
It cost me everything
to transition.

1087
00:51:27,036 --> 00:51:30,999
Now, resilience comes
from surviving adversity.

1088
00:51:31,000 --> 00:51:33,625
But, you don't have to
actually give-

1089
00:51:33,626 --> 00:51:36,587
create your own
adversities.

1090
00:51:36,588 --> 00:51:39,258
And that happens from...

1091
00:51:39,259 --> 00:51:42,803
caving, caving to some...
somebody else's idea

1092
00:51:42,804 --> 00:51:45,096
of who you should be.

1093
00:51:45,097 --> 00:51:47,390
According to Aristotle,

1094
00:51:47,391 --> 00:51:51,727
the meaning of life is to
enjoy yourself.

1095
00:51:51,728 --> 00:51:54,689
If you stay honest to
the things you want,

1096
00:51:54,690 --> 00:51:59,276
your life will
feel much better.

1097
00:51:59,277 --> 00:52:01,111
I've gone on too long.

1098
00:52:02,322 --> 00:52:04,073
I'll pass the floor on.

1099
00:52:04,074 --> 00:52:07,618
Specifically in my community,
I don't have a lot of older

1100
00:52:07,619 --> 00:52:10,538
queer people to like
ask questions to, and...

1101
00:52:10,539 --> 00:52:11,915
rely on.

1102
00:52:11,916 --> 00:52:14,625
I would like to ask an older
queer person

1103
00:52:14,626 --> 00:52:16,669
what things were like when
they were younger,

1104
00:52:16,670 --> 00:52:19,214
how they dealt with it, and
how they managed to

1105
00:52:19,215 --> 00:52:23,218
persevere and find a life
that they love.

1106
00:52:23,219 --> 00:52:25,511
I was married for 10 years,
had two children,

1107
00:52:25,512 --> 00:52:28,931
when I realized that I was
also attracted to women.

1108
00:52:28,932 --> 00:52:32,560
And, I ran across a small
gay community at a little

1109
00:52:32,561 --> 00:52:35,980
hole in the wall gay bar
that was selling tickets

1110
00:52:35,981 --> 00:52:37,441
to straight people
to come down and

1111
00:52:37,442 --> 00:52:39,526
look at the queers.

1112
00:52:39,527 --> 00:52:42,236
So, we as a
community, boycotted.

1113
00:52:42,237 --> 00:52:44,196
And so, consequently,
they went bankrupt,

1114
00:52:44,197 --> 00:52:47,450
and we took over the lease.

1115
00:52:47,451 --> 00:52:50,913
And finally, we had a place
where the gay community

1116
00:52:50,914 --> 00:52:53,499
could, could meet
and enjoy themselves.

1117
00:52:53,500 --> 00:52:56,625
My youth was very isolated.

1118
00:52:56,626 --> 00:52:59,337
I grew up in a
very rural town,

1119
00:52:59,338 --> 00:53:01,506
so I can see you guys,
you know,

1120
00:53:01,507 --> 00:53:04,133
maybe having those sort
of same lived experiences,

1121
00:53:04,134 --> 00:53:07,513
and it's a difficult time,
but I have lived through it.

1122
00:53:07,514 --> 00:53:08,971
I've gone past it,

1123
00:53:08,972 --> 00:53:11,556
I've had a lot of positive
things in my life.

1124
00:53:11,557 --> 00:53:14,477
And I'm out here now, and
I'm out and I'm proud,

1125
00:53:14,478 --> 00:53:17,230
and I'm here, and I want to
make a difference

1126
00:53:17,231 --> 00:53:18,689
now that I'm older.

1127
00:53:18,690 --> 00:53:21,776
My main interest at this
point in my life is to

1128
00:53:21,777 --> 00:53:24,446
continue to meet as many
young people as I can,

1129
00:53:24,447 --> 00:53:27,698
to find out what their goals
are, what their vision are.

1130
00:53:27,699 --> 00:53:30,701
What do you see the gay
community, 20 years from now,

1131
00:53:30,702 --> 00:53:32,538
30 years from now?

1132
00:53:32,539 --> 00:53:34,915
And what are you going to
do about it to make sure

1133
00:53:34,916 --> 00:53:37,040
it continues to
move forward?

1134
00:53:37,041 --> 00:53:39,962
And you have to be
constantly vigilant because

1135
00:53:39,963 --> 00:53:42,254
there are some church
organizations,

1136
00:53:42,255 --> 00:53:44,339
and definitely
some politicians,

1137
00:53:44,340 --> 00:53:47,301
that would change the
law just like that.

1138
00:53:47,302 --> 00:53:49,178
Don't let it be taken
away from you

1139
00:53:49,179 --> 00:53:50,638
just by being complacent.

1140
00:53:50,639 --> 00:53:52,013
There's always
work to be done,

1141
00:53:52,014 --> 00:53:53,850
and if not right here
in our own backyard,

1142
00:53:53,851 --> 00:53:55,727
for other countries,
other gay people

1143
00:53:55,728 --> 00:53:59,022
throughout the world.
So, don't give up.

1144
00:54:01,525 --> 00:54:03,567
I am one of those kids from...

1145
00:54:03,568 --> 00:54:05,571
a rural town, who...

1146
00:54:05,572 --> 00:54:07,196
does not have any resources,

1147
00:54:07,197 --> 00:54:10,031
or help, or any
support, or any...

1148
00:54:10,032 --> 00:54:13,453
education about being
queer, being trans.

1149
00:54:13,454 --> 00:54:15,538
When I was trying to
figure myself out,

1150
00:54:15,539 --> 00:54:19,209
I felt so completely alone
because I had never met

1151
00:54:19,210 --> 00:54:21,587
a queer person
older than me.

1152
00:54:21,588 --> 00:54:23,464
I was the only person
that I knew who was

1153
00:54:23,465 --> 00:54:25,006
going through this and,

1154
00:54:25,007 --> 00:54:27,468
I know that a lot of people
have had similar experiences,

1155
00:54:27,469 --> 00:54:29,051
and it sucks, but
it doesn't have to

1156
00:54:29,052 --> 00:54:30,511
be like that anymore.

1157
00:54:30,512 --> 00:54:32,138
And I think that's really
awesome that we have the

1158
00:54:32,139 --> 00:54:34,098
chance to improve on that.

1159
00:54:34,099 --> 00:54:37,560
I've never felt more support
anywhere else in my life.

1160
00:54:37,561 --> 00:54:39,980
And, I'm so glad I'm making
connections because

1161
00:54:39,981 --> 00:54:42,191
making friends is
hard when you...

1162
00:54:42,192 --> 00:54:43,941
stand out as much as I do,

1163
00:54:43,942 --> 00:54:47,361
because people are
judging you often.

1164
00:54:47,362 --> 00:54:49,864
But here, it feels judgement
- free, it feels safe.

1165
00:54:49,865 --> 00:54:53,451
I feel like everyone else
here is just as weird

1166
00:54:53,452 --> 00:54:56,330
as I am, for lack
of a better term.

1167
00:54:56,331 --> 00:54:59,415
This place is the best for-
I've ever felt.

1168
00:55:00,541 --> 00:55:03,919
- Can we take a group picture?
- 1, 2, 3!

1169
00:55:03,920 --> 00:55:07,006
- Queer joy.
- Queer joy!

1170
00:55:07,007 --> 00:55:09,799
Thank you very much!
All done on my end.

1171
00:55:22,940 --> 00:55:26,942
♪ DARLING,
A MESSAGE TO DELIVER ♪

1172
00:55:26,943 --> 00:55:29,946
♪ I HOPE YOU'RE READY ♪

1173
00:55:29,947 --> 00:55:33,156
♪ FOR THE CALL,
I'LL BE... ♪

1174
00:55:33,157 --> 00:55:35,826
Okay, team, I would like you
to jump on the rope, okay...

1175
00:55:35,827 --> 00:55:38,330
Let's go and support
that climber.

1176
00:55:38,331 --> 00:55:39,997
I kept looking down.

1177
00:55:39,998 --> 00:55:41,959
I kept looking down
the whole time.

1178
00:55:41,960 --> 00:55:44,125
- Is my belay on?
- Yeah.

1179
00:55:44,126 --> 00:55:46,712
- Can I climb?
- Yes.

1180
00:55:49,550 --> 00:55:51,259
My mom texted me back.

1181
00:55:51,260 --> 00:55:54,096
She just kind of ignored it
and skipped over it.

1182
00:55:54,097 --> 00:55:56,180
Like, I said, "Good,
I came out as trans."

1183
00:55:56,181 --> 00:55:58,431
And then, she responds with:
"What activities did you do?

1184
00:55:58,432 --> 00:55:59,642
How many are at camp?

1185
00:55:59,643 --> 00:56:00,642
Being on film
put a kink in me,

1186
00:56:00,643 --> 00:56:01,937
wishing you a sincere
goodbye and

1187
00:56:01,938 --> 00:56:03,397
wishing you had
an amazing time.

1188
00:56:03,398 --> 00:56:06,022
Meet friends, get lots of
pictures, and have fun."

1189
00:56:06,023 --> 00:56:07,651
That's all she said.

1190
00:56:07,652 --> 00:56:11,696
And I was like,
okay, okay, alright.

1191
00:56:11,697 --> 00:56:14,239
That's like a big
moment in someone's life.

1192
00:56:14,240 --> 00:56:15,450
And you're just like...

1193
00:56:15,451 --> 00:56:17,660
"What activities
did you do?"

1194
00:56:17,661 --> 00:56:19,079
"How was camp?"

1195
00:56:25,168 --> 00:56:27,004
When you come out to your
parents without getting the

1196
00:56:27,005 --> 00:56:29,129
supportive response you
might have expected,

1197
00:56:29,130 --> 00:56:30,924
it kind of feels like
the floor falls out

1198
00:56:30,925 --> 00:56:32,300
from underneath you.

1199
00:56:39,516 --> 00:56:41,978
No, I'm not calling her,
no way!

1200
00:56:44,688 --> 00:56:48,524
It kind of just feels draining
to not have that support,

1201
00:56:48,525 --> 00:56:51,861
or like, just acceptance
in the basic topic of it.

1202
00:56:51,862 --> 00:56:53,906
Don't look down!

1203
00:56:53,907 --> 00:56:55,156
You're worse than me.

1204
00:56:56,532 --> 00:56:58,660
I'm nervous to see
how this plays out,

1205
00:56:58,661 --> 00:57:00,535
and how this conversation
goes at home.

1206
00:57:00,536 --> 00:57:02,163
I just want them
to see me,

1207
00:57:02,164 --> 00:57:04,999
and understand me
as who I am.

1208
00:57:05,000 --> 00:57:07,419
Go, King!
Don't fall.

1209
00:57:07,420 --> 00:57:08,544
Almost there.

1210
00:57:08,545 --> 00:57:10,379
At camp, you could
see that there was

1211
00:57:10,380 --> 00:57:12,839
one kid or
another who was

1212
00:57:12,840 --> 00:57:15,134
struggling with
something or other.

1213
00:57:15,135 --> 00:57:17,846
And, camp not only gives
you the opportunity

1214
00:57:17,847 --> 00:57:19,805
to be supported,
but it also gives you

1215
00:57:19,806 --> 00:57:22,433
the opportunity
to support.

1216
00:57:22,434 --> 00:57:23,892
You're pretty much
over that edge now.

1217
00:57:23,893 --> 00:57:24,895
There you go!
Now you're over the edge!

1218
00:57:24,896 --> 00:57:27,022
- You're almost at the bell!
- Woo!

1219
00:57:27,023 --> 00:57:29,482
Being able to
provide that support,

1220
00:57:29,483 --> 00:57:31,484
it almost gives you
a feeling of closure.

1221
00:57:31,485 --> 00:57:33,069
- You're all good.
- Yeah!

1222
00:57:34,862 --> 00:57:39,408
Oh, my God, you did it!
I had no faith in you.

1223
00:57:39,409 --> 00:57:43,538
What can I say?
Master, legend.

1224
00:57:43,539 --> 00:57:45,749
You're just made because you
could definitely not do it.

1225
00:57:45,750 --> 00:57:47,209
Oh, yeah, no, I'm...

1226
00:57:47,210 --> 00:57:49,044
gonna be honest,
I probably couldn't.

1227
00:57:49,045 --> 00:57:50,669
Hey- Oh!

1228
00:57:50,670 --> 00:57:52,672
Alright, I see how it is.

1229
00:58:03,643 --> 00:58:05,810
Do you know how to
make origami things?

1230
00:58:05,811 --> 00:58:08,062
I can teach you
how to make a frog.

1231
00:58:08,063 --> 00:58:10,732
It just needs to be
folded to make a square.

1232
00:58:14,945 --> 00:58:16,697
I went for the rock
climbing thing.

1233
00:58:18,490 --> 00:58:20,450
I love it, just 'cause...

1234
00:58:20,451 --> 00:58:23,327
you get to leave the earth.

1235
00:58:26,206 --> 00:58:28,874
I don't.

1236
00:58:28,875 --> 00:58:30,709
I just wish I could express
myself the same way

1237
00:58:30,710 --> 00:58:34,129
I do here, when I'm at
school, because...

1238
00:58:34,130 --> 00:58:35,964
Here, I don't have to worry
about the judgement

1239
00:58:35,965 --> 00:58:37,799
over the neurodiversities,

1240
00:58:37,800 --> 00:58:39,509
'cause I have to
mask that a lot.

1241
00:58:39,510 --> 00:58:42,973
But yeah, here, I feel
comfortable with the ticks.

1242
00:58:44,266 --> 00:58:46,600
People complain that
I talk too much, yeah.

1243
00:58:46,601 --> 00:58:50,522
So I don't talk
at school anymore.

1244
00:58:50,523 --> 00:58:53,566
But I talk here, a lot.

1245
00:58:53,567 --> 00:58:58,361
Because, I learned very
early on that not talking

1246
00:58:58,362 --> 00:59:02,575
about things leads to a
lot of problems.

1247
00:59:02,576 --> 00:59:05,201
Generally in the past, when
queer people have spoken

1248
00:59:05,202 --> 00:59:07,538
about their queerness
to people, face-to-face,

1249
00:59:07,539 --> 00:59:09,624
they have gotten
punched in the face...

1250
00:59:09,625 --> 00:59:11,375
for being queer.

1251
00:59:11,376 --> 00:59:14,379
But on the internet,
no one knows who you are

1252
00:59:14,380 --> 00:59:16,504
in real life
unless you tell them.

1253
00:59:16,505 --> 00:59:19,799
You can talk about being
queer if you don't get to

1254
00:59:19,800 --> 00:59:22,721
talk about being queer
with your family.

1255
00:59:22,722 --> 00:59:24,930
In like 6th grade,
I found

1256
00:59:24,931 --> 00:59:26,598
a bunch of trans masc
YouTubers.

1257
00:59:26,599 --> 00:59:28,642
I watched all of the T videos.

1258
00:59:28,643 --> 00:59:30,270
I watched all of
the top surgery.

1259
00:59:30,271 --> 00:59:32,480
I watched, like, everything.

1260
00:59:32,481 --> 00:59:34,066
So, it was kind of like...

1261
00:59:34,067 --> 00:59:36,734
an, oh, I found
my community.

1262
00:59:36,735 --> 00:59:38,111
My parents never
talked about it.

1263
00:59:38,112 --> 00:59:40,196
I never learned about
anything like that in schools.

1264
00:59:40,197 --> 00:59:42,489
I... did all of the
research about

1265
00:59:42,490 --> 00:59:44,116
different identities
by myself,

1266
00:59:44,117 --> 00:59:45,451
and it was really
overwhelming,

1267
00:59:45,452 --> 00:59:47,035
but as I've learned
more about the community

1268
00:59:47,036 --> 00:59:49,455
and about myself,
I realize that there are

1269
00:59:49,456 --> 00:59:51,499
so many options, and I
could finally found one-

1270
00:59:51,500 --> 00:59:53,750
find one that fit me.
And I did.

1271
00:59:53,751 --> 00:59:55,838
Frog.

1272
00:59:59,840 --> 01:00:02,634
Wrong side-
you hop from the legs.

1273
01:00:02,635 --> 01:00:05,471
Okay...

1274
01:00:07,057 --> 01:00:10,392
I think everyone has a sheet
of paper in front of them.

1275
01:00:10,393 --> 01:00:13,647
So, let's read out what's
on the sheet of paper,

1276
01:00:13,648 --> 01:00:16,272
and then we can give you
sort of a definition.

1277
01:00:16,273 --> 01:00:17,732
Would anybody like
to talk about

1278
01:00:17,733 --> 01:00:19,651
what intersectionality is?

1279
01:00:19,652 --> 01:00:21,154
It's basically what
the word says,

1280
01:00:21,155 --> 01:00:24,114
it's how your identities
intersect with each other,

1281
01:00:24,115 --> 01:00:26,910
and whether you're a POC,
or disabled, or white,

1282
01:00:26,911 --> 01:00:29,995
or whatever, the different
queer experiences

1283
01:00:29,996 --> 01:00:32,832
within different
experiences.

1284
01:00:32,833 --> 01:00:34,917
- Mhm, wonderful.
- Well said.

1285
01:00:34,918 --> 01:00:36,044
Yeah!

1286
01:00:36,045 --> 01:00:37,544
I think that society
was drawn that way,

1287
01:00:37,545 --> 01:00:39,922
where the way you were
labeled, that's how you acted.

1288
01:00:39,923 --> 01:00:41,383
It's like you kind of...

1289
01:00:41,384 --> 01:00:43,468
I don't know, it's like a
character on a video game.

1290
01:00:43,469 --> 01:00:45,886
You have all these
things you can do and

1291
01:00:45,887 --> 01:00:47,096
things you can't do.

1292
01:00:47,097 --> 01:00:49,390
Gender identity...

1293
01:00:49,391 --> 01:00:51,977
Gender identity,
you often hear

1294
01:00:51,978 --> 01:00:54,477
of like, it's what's
in-between the ears.

1295
01:00:54,478 --> 01:00:57,982
Right, because it's
so innate in all of us.

1296
01:00:57,983 --> 01:00:59,607
And the other side
of that is why

1297
01:00:59,608 --> 01:01:03,279
pronouns are so, so,
so important!

1298
01:01:03,280 --> 01:01:06,156
But, I think the more
we grow into society,

1299
01:01:06,157 --> 01:01:09,118
people have to start to
learn that and to accept that,

1300
01:01:09,119 --> 01:01:12,705
that we're not gonna
necessarily act...

1301
01:01:12,706 --> 01:01:14,915
the way that our
label tells us to act.

1302
01:01:14,916 --> 01:01:18,084
How do we know what
someone's pronouns are?

1303
01:01:18,085 --> 01:01:19,337
- Ask them.
- Ask them.

1304
01:01:19,338 --> 01:01:21,547
Perfect! Perfect.
Basic stuff.

1305
01:01:21,548 --> 01:01:24,383
What do you do if you
accidentally use

1306
01:01:24,384 --> 01:01:25,926
the wrong pronouns?

1307
01:01:25,927 --> 01:01:27,303
- Correct yourself.
- Apologize quickly.

1308
01:01:27,304 --> 01:01:29,848
But, you don't spend
a lot of time on it.

1309
01:01:29,849 --> 01:01:31,390
You don't be like, "Oh,
I'm such a terrible person

1310
01:01:31,391 --> 01:01:33,350
'cause I messed it up."

1311
01:01:33,351 --> 01:01:35,145
You just correct yourself
and move on.

1312
01:01:35,146 --> 01:01:37,397
- Exactly.
- I love it, yes.

1313
01:01:37,398 --> 01:01:40,607
We're starting to learn
that whole idea of, like,

1314
01:01:40,608 --> 01:01:43,486
the freedom. The freedom
to do what you...

1315
01:01:43,487 --> 01:01:44,779
want to do,
and express yourself

1316
01:01:44,780 --> 01:01:46,031
the way you want to do.

1317
01:01:46,032 --> 01:01:47,614
And even I talked about
that with my mom, too,

1318
01:01:47,615 --> 01:01:49,658
just the way she was raised.

1319
01:01:49,659 --> 01:01:52,035
Things like LGBTQ or,
People of Colour,

1320
01:01:52,036 --> 01:01:54,788
it was never talked
about as a...

1321
01:01:54,789 --> 01:01:56,790
you know, feelings weren't
talked about very much

1322
01:01:56,791 --> 01:01:58,209
in the household.

1323
01:01:58,210 --> 01:02:00,252
Do you want to read out what
we have for identities and

1324
01:02:00,253 --> 01:02:01,337
ways of being?

1325
01:02:01,338 --> 01:02:03,047
Sure. Um...

1326
01:02:03,048 --> 01:02:06,424
There's "disabled"
and "neurodivergent".

1327
01:02:06,425 --> 01:02:08,678
And then there's
two ones that say,

1328
01:02:08,679 --> 01:02:11,805
"Haitian" and another
one that says "queer".

1329
01:02:11,806 --> 01:02:14,267
There's also "immigrant"
and "intersection".

1330
01:02:14,268 --> 01:02:15,935
Yeah.

1331
01:02:20,273 --> 01:02:22,857
- Try to remember the card.
- Okay.

1332
01:02:22,858 --> 01:02:24,944
- Okay, I got it.
- Okay, put it back in.

1333
01:02:27,155 --> 01:02:28,446
Is this your card?

1334
01:02:28,447 --> 01:02:30,950
Yeah!

1335
01:02:30,951 --> 01:02:33,201
Wow!

1336
01:02:33,202 --> 01:02:35,038
That was impressive.

1337
01:02:35,039 --> 01:02:37,830
I know you said that
you were also adopted.

1338
01:02:37,831 --> 01:02:39,084
When you said that,
I was like...

1339
01:02:39,085 --> 01:02:40,542
What?!
I was like-

1340
01:02:40,543 --> 01:02:42,044
What are the odds?

1341
01:02:42,045 --> 01:02:43,504
At first when you,
when you,

1342
01:02:43,505 --> 01:02:45,924
you said you were from
Haiti, I was like, okay.

1343
01:02:45,925 --> 01:02:47,174
And then when you said you
were adopted, too,

1344
01:02:47,175 --> 01:02:48,384
I was like, oh, okay!

1345
01:02:48,385 --> 01:02:49,803
No way.

1346
01:02:49,804 --> 01:02:51,261
I don't meet a lot of
other people from Haiti.

1347
01:02:51,262 --> 01:02:54,556
And, I meet even
fewer who are adopted.

1348
01:02:54,557 --> 01:02:56,850
And even fewer who were
adopted at a young age.

1349
01:02:56,851 --> 01:02:58,102
Yeah.

1350
01:02:58,103 --> 01:02:59,937
'Cause I was adopted
when I was just...

1351
01:02:59,938 --> 01:03:01,772
I think like over
two years old.

1352
01:03:01,773 --> 01:03:04,526
Yeah, we were around the same
age when we were adopted.

1353
01:03:04,527 --> 01:03:06,067
- Yeah.
- Which is cool.

1354
01:03:06,068 --> 01:03:07,821
Were you adopted with
siblings or by yourself?

1355
01:03:07,822 --> 01:03:09,279
Well, I have siblings.

1356
01:03:09,280 --> 01:03:11,489
I think they still
live in Haiti...

1357
01:03:11,490 --> 01:03:13,158
because they're
older than me, too.

1358
01:03:13,159 --> 01:03:15,245
Yeah, mine are older
than me as well.

1359
01:03:15,246 --> 01:03:16,745
But my parents
decided to adopt

1360
01:03:16,746 --> 01:03:18,288
when I was like one and a
half or something.

1361
01:03:18,289 --> 01:03:20,332
And my brother was
under a year old.

1362
01:03:20,333 --> 01:03:23,794
We were in the orphanage
maybe six months or something

1363
01:03:23,795 --> 01:03:26,839
before we were like matched.

1364
01:03:26,840 --> 01:03:29,133
But growing up, I think
my family kind of tried,

1365
01:03:29,134 --> 01:03:32,261
to like, have us have
cultural influences.

1366
01:03:32,262 --> 01:03:35,055
And it's hard when like
everyone you grow up with

1367
01:03:35,056 --> 01:03:38,017
looks different from you
and acts different from you,

1368
01:03:38,018 --> 01:03:39,352
like...

1369
01:03:39,353 --> 01:03:41,895
So, I think I was really
excited when you said

1370
01:03:41,896 --> 01:03:44,272
you were also adopted from
Haiti, 'cause I'm like...

1371
01:03:44,273 --> 01:03:46,607
I was too, and it was
nice because

1372
01:03:46,608 --> 01:03:49,319
you're also a queer person
who's like, you know,

1373
01:03:49,320 --> 01:03:51,031
in the same boat as me,
and it's like,

1374
01:03:51,032 --> 01:03:54,325
it's hard to find
a lot of, you know,

1375
01:03:54,326 --> 01:03:56,201
Black people who
are also, you know,

1376
01:03:56,202 --> 01:03:58,745
supportive sometimes.
I mean, there is obviously...

1377
01:03:58,746 --> 01:04:00,497
there, there are, but it's,

1378
01:04:00,498 --> 01:04:02,415
it's hard to find that
mix sometimes.

1379
01:04:02,416 --> 01:04:03,959
Can I ask, like...

1380
01:04:03,960 --> 01:04:05,712
I don't know if you feel
super connected

1381
01:04:05,713 --> 01:04:06,669
to your culture.

1382
01:04:06,670 --> 01:04:08,589
I feel really
separated from mine,

1383
01:04:08,590 --> 01:04:10,133
which makes me sad sometimes.

1384
01:04:10,134 --> 01:04:12,468
Like, it's hard, especially in
Calgary, to find, you know,

1385
01:04:12,469 --> 01:04:14,928
a lot of Haitian culture
and everything, and...

1386
01:04:14,929 --> 01:04:17,890
I don't think my mom,
like- I think...

1387
01:04:17,891 --> 01:04:20,683
I don't think she like tried
to push me away from it.

1388
01:04:20,684 --> 01:04:21,977
- I just think...
- Yeah.

1389
01:04:21,978 --> 01:04:23,227
I don't know,
their traditions are...

1390
01:04:23,228 --> 01:04:24,355
Yeah.

1391
01:04:24,356 --> 01:04:25,522
Their like,
I don't know,

1392
01:04:25,523 --> 01:04:27,649
some food they
eat or whatever.

1393
01:04:27,650 --> 01:04:29,817
I don't know, just things
like that would just be nice.

1394
01:04:29,818 --> 01:04:32,488
I feel like when families
adopt kids from

1395
01:04:32,489 --> 01:04:34,448
other cultures
and races, like,

1396
01:04:34,449 --> 01:04:38,368
it's hard to be prepared for,
like, connecting a kid.

1397
01:04:38,369 --> 01:04:41,370
Right, and then, when you're
not really growing up in it,

1398
01:04:41,371 --> 01:04:43,832
it's hard to... yeah.

1399
01:04:43,833 --> 01:04:45,959
Like, replicate that.
Like, how do you...

1400
01:04:45,960 --> 01:04:48,587
you know, like,
simulate that experience

1401
01:04:48,588 --> 01:04:50,172
of growing up in
Haiti when, like,

1402
01:04:50,173 --> 01:04:52,591
we're in Canada,
we're in Alberta?

1403
01:04:52,592 --> 01:04:54,009
Yeah.

1404
01:04:54,010 --> 01:04:57,053
I think meeting someone
who's in the same boat as me

1405
01:04:57,054 --> 01:04:59,306
gave me a lot more
confidence in myself.

1406
01:04:59,307 --> 01:05:01,433
It just feels good to be
around people

1407
01:05:01,434 --> 01:05:03,185
who like geneuinely get it.

1408
01:05:03,186 --> 01:05:05,897
I found like one, like...

1409
01:05:05,898 --> 01:05:07,564
like,
Jamaican restaurant.

1410
01:05:07,565 --> 01:05:09,107
That was the closest I found.

1411
01:05:09,108 --> 01:05:11,317
I think there is a good
Haitian restaurant in Calgary.

1412
01:05:11,318 --> 01:05:13,029
There definitely
is one in Edmonton.

1413
01:05:13,030 --> 01:05:14,446
I think there should
be a bit more.

1414
01:05:14,447 --> 01:05:16,739
I agree.
That'd be nice.

1415
01:05:16,740 --> 01:05:18,408
That'd be nice if we went to
something together

1416
01:05:18,409 --> 01:05:20,035
since I do know you
very well.

1417
01:05:20,036 --> 01:05:21,370
- That would be cool.
- Yeah.

1418
01:05:21,371 --> 01:05:23,038
And it made me just
more proud to

1419
01:05:23,039 --> 01:05:25,332
be all the stuff I am.

1420
01:05:25,333 --> 01:05:27,334
So, it was nice.

1421
01:05:27,335 --> 01:05:28,877
Another heart.

1422
01:05:30,088 --> 01:05:32,464
Nice, good job.
You're getting the hang of it.

1423
01:05:32,465 --> 01:05:34,008
- Hey!
- Ooh.

1424
01:05:34,009 --> 01:05:35,801
It's always dangerous
playing cards outside.

1425
01:05:35,802 --> 01:05:37,511
Okay...

1426
01:05:45,978 --> 01:05:47,312
You look really beautiful!

1427
01:05:47,313 --> 01:05:49,065
Yeah!

1428
01:05:49,108 --> 01:05:51,357
Hello, everybody!

1429
01:05:51,358 --> 01:05:53,819
Hi!

1430
01:05:53,820 --> 01:05:57,406
Welcome, and thank you so
much for joining us here at

1431
01:05:57,407 --> 01:06:00,160
the Camp fYrefly "gay-la".

1432
01:06:03,621 --> 01:06:05,415
We're gathered here in
the middle of the woods

1433
01:06:05,416 --> 01:06:07,749
to showcase our talent.

1434
01:06:11,713 --> 01:06:13,422
Please feel free
to sing along.

1435
01:06:13,423 --> 01:06:15,214
Yeah, okay.

1436
01:06:15,215 --> 01:06:17,384
"Truth Hurts" By Lizzo ♪

1437
01:06:21,347 --> 01:06:23,223
♪ I JUST TOOK A
DNA TEST. ♪

1438
01:06:23,224 --> 01:06:26,517
♪ TURNS OUT I'M
100% THAT BITCH ♪

1439
01:06:26,518 --> 01:06:28,187
♪ EVEN WHEN
I'M CRYING CRAZY ♪

1440
01:06:28,188 --> 01:06:29,855
♪ YEAH, I GOT
BOY PROBLEMS ♪

1441
01:06:29,856 --> 01:06:31,441
♪ THAT'S THE
HUMAN IN ME. ♪

1442
01:06:31,442 --> 01:06:33,192
♪ BLING BLING,
THEN I SOLVE 'EM ♪

1443
01:06:33,193 --> 01:06:34,861
♪ THAT'S THE
GODDESS IN ME ♪

1444
01:06:34,862 --> 01:06:37,863
♪ YOU COULDA HAD A BAD
BITCH, NON-COMMITTAL ♪

1445
01:06:37,864 --> 01:06:39,573
♪ ...HOLD ME DOWN ♪

1446
01:06:39,574 --> 01:06:41,158
♪ BUT YOU'RE
HOLDING ME BACK ♪

1447
01:06:41,159 --> 01:06:42,826
♪ AND THAT'S
THE SOUND ♪

1448
01:06:42,827 --> 01:06:44,660
♪ OF ME NOT
CALLING YOU BACK. ♪

1449
01:06:44,661 --> 01:06:48,040
♪ BOM BOM BI BOM
BI DUM DUM AY ♪

1450
01:07:01,262 --> 01:07:05,056
When it comes to my future,
I'm not 100% sure yet.

1451
01:07:05,057 --> 01:07:07,767
Hopefully, I will be
medically transitioned

1452
01:07:07,768 --> 01:07:09,562
to a point where
I'm comfortable.

1453
01:07:09,563 --> 01:07:11,105
I want to be a dad.

1454
01:07:11,106 --> 01:07:12,814
I want to have kids one day.

1455
01:07:12,815 --> 01:07:17,401
I want to pursue my
interests in fashion so,

1456
01:07:17,402 --> 01:07:19,529
I just hope that in 10 years

1457
01:07:19,530 --> 01:07:23,616
that I'll be more me than I,
than I am right now.

1458
01:07:23,617 --> 01:07:26,120
However that will
happen, it'll happen.

1459
01:07:26,121 --> 01:07:27,830
Oliver!

1460
01:07:30,208 --> 01:07:32,209
Even though
camp is ending,

1461
01:07:32,210 --> 01:07:35,629
and we are, undoubtedly,
going to go our separate ways,

1462
01:07:35,630 --> 01:07:39,091
it's still just so nice to
know that at the very least,

1463
01:07:39,092 --> 01:07:41,134
we have each other now.

1464
01:07:41,135 --> 01:07:43,136
And, we'll have
these memories

1465
01:07:43,137 --> 01:07:45,888
for the rest of our lives.

1466
01:07:45,889 --> 01:07:48,475
Yeah, my dudes will
always have my back.

1467
01:07:55,817 --> 01:08:00,154
Um... This is a piece
called "Nevermore".

1468
01:08:00,155 --> 01:08:02,446
I played it in
school this year.

1469
01:08:02,447 --> 01:08:04,700
It's my favourite
piece that we played.

1470
01:08:06,577 --> 01:08:08,245
We're good to go.

1471
01:08:08,246 --> 01:08:10,372
I think being brave and
trusting myself

1472
01:08:10,373 --> 01:08:11,624
has been really hard.

1473
01:08:11,625 --> 01:08:14,125
I haven't played in a while,
so I might mess up.

1474
01:08:14,126 --> 01:08:16,086
You got this!

1475
01:08:19,757 --> 01:08:21,550
Yeah!

1476
01:08:21,551 --> 01:08:24,970
But, I feel like
I'm much more brave

1477
01:08:24,971 --> 01:08:27,639
to be myself a bit more.

1478
01:09:12,226 --> 01:09:14,019
That's it.

1479
01:09:28,242 --> 01:09:29,618
Give it up for Mia!

1480
01:09:31,287 --> 01:09:33,747
Really makes me feel
special because I know

1481
01:09:33,748 --> 01:09:35,124
that there are
people out there

1482
01:09:35,125 --> 01:09:37,125
who want to see that,
and who do care

1483
01:09:37,126 --> 01:09:39,504
about my true,
authentic self.

1484
01:09:39,505 --> 01:09:41,630
It feels like the weight
has been lifted off,

1485
01:09:41,631 --> 01:09:44,216
and I can like relax...

1486
01:09:44,217 --> 01:09:46,134
and do me.

1487
01:09:48,179 --> 01:09:50,013
♪ ...REACHING OUT
FOR YOU. ♪

1488
01:09:50,014 --> 01:09:52,517
♪ IN THE DARK. ♪

1489
01:09:52,518 --> 01:09:55,394
♪ I'M JUST NO GOOD
AT GIVING RELIEF. ♪

1490
01:09:58,231 --> 01:10:00,899
♪ IN THE DARK. ♪

1491
01:10:00,900 --> 01:10:04,319
♪ IT WON'T BE EASY
TO FIND RELIEF ♪

1492
01:10:06,948 --> 01:10:09,408
♪ AND I'M NOT PROUD ♪

1493
01:10:09,409 --> 01:10:12,745
♪ THAT NOTHING WILL SEEM
EASY ABOUT ME ♪

1494
01:10:15,206 --> 01:10:16,957
♪ BUT I PROMISE THIS ♪

1495
01:10:16,958 --> 01:10:19,251
♪ I WON'T GO
MY WHOLE LIFE ♪

1496
01:10:19,252 --> 01:10:23,004
♪ TELLING YOU I DON'T NEED ♪

1497
01:10:42,150 --> 01:10:44,276
In 10 years, I could maybe
see myself somewhere.

1498
01:10:44,277 --> 01:10:46,821
In a city, like
in an apartment.

1499
01:10:46,822 --> 01:10:49,948
Maybe I'm living with
somebody else, maybe I'm not.

1500
01:10:49,949 --> 01:10:52,160
I'd like to be able
to help people

1501
01:10:52,161 --> 01:10:54,077
like me when I was younger.

1502
01:10:54,078 --> 01:10:56,955
I'd like to be the
person that I needed.

1503
01:10:56,956 --> 01:10:59,040
I either want to be a
criminal justice lawyer,

1504
01:10:59,041 --> 01:11:01,877
or I would want to be
a film director.

1505
01:11:01,878 --> 01:11:04,129
Either way, I want to do
something to help people.

1506
01:11:04,130 --> 01:11:06,047
And like, make an
impact on the world.

1507
01:11:08,676 --> 01:11:12,095
I see myself probably
in a better place, very happy.

1508
01:11:12,096 --> 01:11:15,181
And, I see myself
being successful.

1509
01:11:15,182 --> 01:11:19,769
I think, I think I'm
going to be successful.

1510
01:11:19,770 --> 01:11:23,441
I can imagine that I'd be
in an apartment, definitely.

1511
01:11:23,442 --> 01:11:25,942
Being a hard worker...

1512
01:11:25,943 --> 01:11:29,237
trying her best to
do what she can.

1513
01:11:54,764 --> 01:11:56,389
Happy last day, campers.

1514
01:11:56,390 --> 01:11:59,227
After breakfast, we're gonna
have the closing ceremony.

1515
01:11:59,228 --> 01:12:01,562
And then, the bus
will be here by noon,

1516
01:12:01,563 --> 01:12:03,647
so please have your bags
ready to go by then.

1517
01:12:03,648 --> 01:12:05,066
Thank you!

1518
01:12:05,067 --> 01:12:06,901
Everyone in the world is
going to know that

1519
01:12:06,902 --> 01:12:08,777
you drink straight milk.

1520
01:12:11,030 --> 01:12:12,739
Milk is so good.

1521
01:12:12,740 --> 01:12:14,282
Good milk.

1522
01:12:14,283 --> 01:12:17,285
I'm really nervous
to see my parents

1523
01:12:17,286 --> 01:12:18,828
and kind of talk to them...

1524
01:12:18,829 --> 01:12:21,165
to see how this plays out,
and how this

1525
01:12:21,166 --> 01:12:23,459
conversation goes at home.

1526
01:12:26,712 --> 01:12:29,506
They're not gonna like throw
out all the milk, right?

1527
01:12:29,507 --> 01:12:31,299
- No.
- Okay.

1528
01:12:31,300 --> 01:12:32,926
- 'Cause I was like...
- The milk.

1529
01:12:32,927 --> 01:12:34,219
The milk can go back.

1530
01:12:34,220 --> 01:12:35,971
Good.

1531
01:12:35,972 --> 01:12:37,764
In my family, when we have
something to talk about,

1532
01:12:37,765 --> 01:12:40,017
we kind of just say it,
and it just sits there.

1533
01:12:40,018 --> 01:12:41,477
We don't really discuss it.

1534
01:12:41,478 --> 01:12:44,020
Kind of just left out on
the table, like cold dinner,

1535
01:12:44,021 --> 01:12:45,982
and just kind of cools down
until nobody really

1536
01:12:45,983 --> 01:12:48,191
wants to eat it.

1537
01:12:48,192 --> 01:12:51,778
It feels a lot worse because
this is literally who I am.

1538
01:12:53,239 --> 01:12:55,448
I love my parents, and
I know they love me,

1539
01:12:55,449 --> 01:12:59,202
but I wish they could
understand and see me,

1540
01:12:59,203 --> 01:13:01,496
as Kingston.

1541
01:13:01,497 --> 01:13:03,749
Have I ever told you
that I hate you?

1542
01:13:03,750 --> 01:13:05,209
Oh, yeah.

1543
01:13:14,927 --> 01:13:16,970
Marshall has a few words

1544
01:13:16,971 --> 01:13:19,223
to really bring this
all together.

1545
01:13:22,310 --> 01:13:24,519
- Go, Marshall!
- Thanks, everyone.

1546
01:13:24,520 --> 01:13:25,812
You don't have to
stop clapping

1547
01:13:25,813 --> 01:13:27,063
just 'cause up I'm here.

1548
01:13:31,444 --> 01:13:34,196
Growing up, I didn't
necessarily

1549
01:13:34,197 --> 01:13:38,075
have friends
who were queer.

1550
01:13:38,076 --> 01:13:41,620
The fear of being my true self,
it made me pretty weak,

1551
01:13:41,621 --> 01:13:45,832
as I'm sure a lot of
you can feel as well.

1552
01:13:45,833 --> 01:13:48,169
It's...
very hard

1553
01:13:48,170 --> 01:13:50,545
to be queer in this world.

1554
01:13:52,632 --> 01:13:55,800
Take a moment and
acknowledge, and,

1555
01:13:55,801 --> 01:13:58,303
and see how much
you shine,

1556
01:13:58,304 --> 01:14:00,096
and how much you've
allowed yourself

1557
01:14:00,097 --> 01:14:02,767
to shine here at camp.

1558
01:14:02,768 --> 01:14:05,935
And, please hold onto
that shine

1559
01:14:05,936 --> 01:14:08,188
for as long as you can.

1560
01:14:09,899 --> 01:14:11,858
It's so amazing just to see

1561
01:14:11,859 --> 01:14:14,778
how much you've grown
and thrived,

1562
01:14:14,779 --> 01:14:18,073
and I want to all remind you
all to just keep shining.

1563
01:14:21,952 --> 01:14:24,955
I was bullied for being
gay for three years,

1564
01:14:24,956 --> 01:14:28,584
at my old school,
and it really put me down.

1565
01:14:28,585 --> 01:14:32,212
And, coming here, like,
I just forgot about

1566
01:14:32,213 --> 01:14:33,714
everything that happened
at my old school,

1567
01:14:33,715 --> 01:14:35,799
and I just feel
so much better

1568
01:14:35,800 --> 01:14:37,468
to be here with all of you,

1569
01:14:37,469 --> 01:14:41,304
and feel like I have
a home with you guys.

1570
01:14:41,305 --> 01:14:45,017
I don't want to leave.

1571
01:14:45,018 --> 01:14:47,018
I will be back next year,
for sure.

1572
01:14:51,858 --> 01:14:54,151
I mean, the best thing about
being at camp has probably

1573
01:14:54,152 --> 01:14:56,403
been actually making friends
that are in a similar

1574
01:14:56,404 --> 01:14:57,571
community to me.

1575
01:14:57,572 --> 01:14:59,864
Where I'm from, it's a really
small town, and there's not-

1576
01:14:59,865 --> 01:15:01,366
dude, stop,
I'm gonna cry.

1577
01:15:01,367 --> 01:15:03,368
I'm trying not to!

1578
01:15:03,369 --> 01:15:04,953
And,
I really love you guys.

1579
01:15:04,954 --> 01:15:06,538
So...

1580
01:15:06,539 --> 01:15:08,540
I'm gonna cry.
I'm gonna get off now.

1581
01:15:16,132 --> 01:15:18,049
There's the things
that'll stick with me,

1582
01:15:18,050 --> 01:15:21,428
which are probably the bug
bites more than anything else.

1583
01:15:21,429 --> 01:15:24,348
But, also just the memories

1584
01:15:24,349 --> 01:15:27,977
of seeing queer
people having fun.

1585
01:15:27,978 --> 01:15:30,437
It's just nice to
see everyone happy.

1586
01:15:30,438 --> 01:15:33,982
And, this image is going
to stick with me forever.

1587
01:15:33,983 --> 01:15:35,316
One thing
I'm gonna leave with,

1588
01:15:35,317 --> 01:15:37,361
all the clothing from
the clothing swap.

1589
01:15:44,326 --> 01:15:47,245
♪ YOU SAID,
"YOU DON'T KNOW HER

1590
01:15:47,246 --> 01:15:49,165
♪ LIKE I DO" ♪

1591
01:15:49,166 --> 01:15:54,169
♪ DON'T BELIEVE YOU'RE
NO GOOD WHEN I INSIST ♪

1592
01:15:54,170 --> 01:15:59,090
♪ THAT WE ARE ALL
MADE OF STONE ♪

1593
01:15:59,091 --> 01:16:03,053
♪ ARE YOU READY
FOR LOVE ♪

1594
01:16:03,054 --> 01:16:05,388
♪ SHOULD I SAY
READY FOR ♪

1595
01:16:05,389 --> 01:16:08,642
♪ ANOTHER BROKEN HEART ♪

1596
01:16:08,643 --> 01:16:11,144
♪ I DON'T CARE ♪

1597
01:16:11,145 --> 01:16:14,355
♪ IF YOU DON'T
REALLY LOVE ME ♪

1598
01:16:14,356 --> 01:16:18,193
♪ AS LONG AS YOU
BLOW ME A KISS ♪

1599
01:16:18,194 --> 01:16:20,069
♪ WE ARE ALL
MADE OF STONE ♪

1600
01:16:20,070 --> 01:16:28,827
Queer joy! Queer joy!

1601
01:16:30,289 --> 01:16:39,174
Queer joy! Queer joy!

1602
01:16:43,426 --> 01:16:46,595
♪ STANDING WHERE
I AM NOW. ♪

1603
01:16:46,596 --> 01:16:51,184
♪ STANDING UP AT ALL. ♪

1604
01:16:51,185 --> 01:16:54,187
♪ I WAS USED TO FEELING
LIKE I WAS NEVER GONNA ♪

1605
01:16:54,188 --> 01:16:57,316
♪ SEE MYSELF,
AT THE FINISH LINE ♪

1606
01:16:59,235 --> 01:17:02,069
♪ HANGING ON
TWO PARTS OF ME ♪

1607
01:17:02,070 --> 01:17:05,032
♪ HANGING ON AT ALL ♪

1608
01:17:07,077 --> 01:17:09,370
♪ I WAS USED TO
SEEING NO FUTURE ♪

1609
01:17:09,371 --> 01:17:11,578
♪ IN MY SIGHT LINE ♪

1610
01:17:13,960 --> 01:17:15,667
♪ SOMETIMES IT
FEELS LIKE ♪

1611
01:17:15,668 --> 01:17:17,879
♪ THEY WANT TO
REMIND ME. ♪

1612
01:17:17,880 --> 01:17:21,424
♪ SEND ALL THOSE
VILLAINS AFTER ME. ♪

1613
01:17:24,719 --> 01:17:27,719
♪ FEELING LIKE I AM NOW. ♪

1614
01:17:27,720 --> 01:17:30,431
♪ LIGHTING UP THE HALL. ♪

1615
01:17:32,643 --> 01:17:34,978
♪ I WAS USED TO STANDING
IN THE SHADOW ♪

1616
01:17:34,979 --> 01:17:37,398
♪ OF A DAMAGED HEART ♪

1617
01:17:40,443 --> 01:17:43,318
♪ LEARNING ALL I KNOW NOW ♪

1618
01:17:43,319 --> 01:17:46,072
♪ LOSING ALL I DID ♪

1619
01:17:48,242 --> 01:17:49,783
♪ I NEVER USED
TO FEEL LIKE ♪

1620
01:17:49,784 --> 01:17:52,578
♪ I'D BE STANDING
SO FAR AHEAD. ♪

1621
01:17:55,248 --> 01:17:59,129
♪ SOMETIMES IT FEELS WHAT
I RECOVERED, YOU LOST. ♪

1622
01:17:59,130 --> 01:18:01,337
♪ SENDING YOUR
PEACEFUL LOSS ♪

1623
01:18:01,338 --> 01:18:03,590
♪ TO ME ♪

1624
01:18:03,591 --> 01:18:07,760
♪ I'M NOT THEIR HERO,
BUT THAT DOESN'T MEAN ♪

1625
01:18:07,761 --> 01:18:09,763
♪ THAT I WASN'T BRAVE ♪

1626
01:18:11,557 --> 01:18:14,267
♪ I NEVER WALKED
THE PARTY LINE ♪

1627
01:18:14,268 --> 01:18:17,603
♪ DOESN'T MEAN THAT I
WAS NEVER AFRAID ♪

1628
01:18:19,480 --> 01:18:23,068
♪ I'M NOT YOUR HERO BUT
THAT DOESN'T MEAN ♪

1629
01:18:23,069 --> 01:18:25,444
♪ WE'RE NOT ONE
AND THE SAME. ♪

1630
01:18:33,453 --> 01:18:35,788
♪ OH, OH, OH. ♪

1631
01:18:41,005 --> 01:18:43,924
♪ AH-OH-OH. ♪

1632
01:18:48,886 --> 01:18:51,389
♪ AH-OH-OH-OH. ♪